Did your CC not give you an idea of what to expect? It'll be over before you know it anyway, do your best to relax as much as you can and if you think it will help then write down some pointers that you think are important to bring up.
I'm glad you spoke to your tutor, hope something gets sorted out that is useful for you.
Of course you're sad seeing people getting offers from unis, it doesn't mean that you'll never be in that position though. Sometimes it takes time.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
It's so easy to focus on the things we feel we're bad at. It's your opinion and that's what matters but I bet you have achieved a lot. Do you put a lot of pressure on yourself so feel like you're not achieving enough? I think even managing to go into college with the way you've been feeling is an achievement. I do understand where you're coming from though. Your beautiful daughter is an achievement, your beautiful personality despite what you've been through is an achievement. :)
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You missed a lot of education due to being unwell, so it's understandable that it might take you a bit of time to get your head around certain concepts. Keep at it. It really will be worth it. Show the universities that you can stick with this and see the course through, and then when you reapply next year (this year now!) you will be one step ahead already. Is there anything else you could do at college Starting in September, if you decide not to do the foundation degree (which could be an amazing option - I really do think you should look into it, as it could put you in a brilliant position for studying nursing)?
“Our defeats are softened and our victories are sweetened because we did it together.” - Toby Ziegler.
A lot of what you write about college is exactly what I used to think about college so I totally know where you're coming from with putting pressure on yourself, worrying about plagiarism, not being motivated and leaving things to the last minute. I used to do exactly the same. The difference is you're actually doing really well with it! If I was back at college I'd be failing miserably, which is why as much as I entertain the idea of studying again sometimes, I don't think I'd be able to cope.
I think you're doing great and I admire you an awful lot for your determination!
I need to call admissions and student finance and see what situation I'd be in if I decided to do the foundation degree.
If i would still be able to get funding for nursing afterwards, I think I want to do it.
But it will probably involve moving.
Which is good because closer to family but I like where I live now.
Idk.
Thank you nonperson. That means a lot
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I know that you struggle with phone calls and things. IT would be a bonus if you could do it yourself, but there's nothing wrong with perhaps asking one of your tutors to call for you. I'm sure they wouldn't mind.
Moving can be hard, but it'd be nice to be close to your family and I'm sure you could find a nice place to live in the new area.
“Our defeats are softened and our victories are sweetened because we did it together.” - Toby Ziegler.
I would hope so.
But the mental health team in my area is apparently one of the best in the country. Or the best. I can't remember. And ive got my slimming world group and my exercise class and a brilliant GP.
Some of those things are very hard to find.
I really really don't want to end up with a mental health team like the one I had before because they were beyond awful.
But i really would like to be closer to my family
Theres just so much to think about
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
There is a lot to think about but you have supportive people around who know you who you can bounce ideas off and ask for advice and suggestions. Try not to get overwhelmed.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
That is true
I do have a great support network
My mum was looking up some stuff about student finance.
She thinks it will be a good idea to do a foundation degree as she has seen how i struggle with college and she said it would be good for me to have another step up to a full degree.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
It does sound like a good next step, it's a step forward and not a huge leap that you might not be able to cope with and then you'd probably feel even worse about your achievements. It could definitely set you up for being able to thrive at uni. Do you think your Mum's right?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
That is very true.
My mum is usually pretty spot on with most things tbh.
I think I'll probably discuss it more with her after I contact the relevant people and see what they say.
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
That's the same reason I chose a Foundation Degree instead of the full thing. It gave me more options and avoided having to a full dissertation which would have been too stressful. I also did mine part time so it took me four years in total! Could that be an option?
I have this fear that I'm getting too old to do all this and I want to do it all as soon as possible.
In reality I am not really old at 26 and i know much older students than me.
But it's still a thought that I can't shake
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I can understand that. You've got to take things at your own pace though or you might hinder your progress. It's ok to take a bit longer to get to where you want to be. Lots of people even change their careers later on in life.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Thats true.
I just have the fear that I'll either be on benefits or working a job I hate for the rest of my life.
Especially as the criminal record is going to follow me around forever
I wish those things had never happened
Not a day goes by that I dont kick myself for it
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
