I think I've realised I'm not getting better

Mrs Sam · 23-01-2019, 12:08 AM

So after spending over half my life in and out of services and now being in a period of being back under services I've finally realised I'm not going to be one of those people who get better. I might get better for a while then dip or be up and down or just down. I don't know. But I think I need to stop chasing the getting better dream as it's leaving me constantly disappointed. I have complex mental health problems. OK. I need support in my life. OK. I'll always have this. OK.

tiptoes · 23-01-2019, 09:42 AM

Sorry I don't have many words but I can relate.

Do you want to talk about what is going on at the moment?

one_step_closer · 23-01-2019, 02:54 PM

I hear you. I know it's hard to manage chronic mental health problems and things can be all over the place. I think focusing on 'getting better' can sometimes make things harder, but letting go of that a bit doesn't mean that things will never get better in whatever way that means for you. It's ok to need support, please use all the support you have. Keep posting here if it helps.

Mrs Sam · 23-01-2019, 04:41 PM

My husband had to take the rest of the week off work to help me because I'm so shit at managing my own life. Spoke to my care coordinator and I'm going back on sertraline. 50mg each week until I'm back up to max dose of 200mg.hoping the effects last this time. Go to my art therapy group tomorrow which is genuinely the only thing in the week I look forward to.

Mrs Sam · 23-01-2019, 04:42 PM

She also said to take the zopiclone I have which I currently keep in cupboard but too scared to take.

one_step_closer · 23-01-2019, 05:39 PM

You deserve the support of your husband, it's not you that's shit at managing your life you're not doing well right now. You manage so many things, your own life and other peoples. I hope the Setraline helps. I'm glad you at least have something to look forward to in the week but I know it feels like such a small thing out of all the rest of the time when things feel crap. What makes you worried about taking the Zopiclone?

Mrs Sam · 23-01-2019, 06:00 PM

I'm worried I won't wake up if the littlest needs me. I know my husband is there but it's still a worry.

tiptoes · 23-01-2019, 06:56 PM

I can understand the worry, do you think whilst your hubby is off to help you it would be easier to take it just the once to see. Are there ways that would make it easier to hear your little one? (Sorry if this is a stupid idea I don't have kids). Would it be worth asking about some pills to help you sleep that work for shorter periods? I had issues with sleep a while ago but needed to be up and fully functioning early so my gp looked for sleeping pills that would help me get to sleep but would have cleared my system before having to get up.

I hope going back on the medication helps and that the art therapy helps too. One thing to look forward to is something it is a place to build from in your own time.

Auror. · 23-01-2019, 07:35 PM

Could you take half of the zopiclone to test it? You may have to check with a pharmacist/prescriber first to see if that's safe but it might worth trying?

Mrs Sam · 24-01-2019, 12:38 AM

I do have some promethazine from ages ago that I could try as I get less sleepy from those. I wish I'd taken something now. Even half a, zopiclone. Imy littlest will be up in a few hours and I haven't been to sleep yet. I'm exhausted but can't sleep. Start back on sertraline tomorrow. Within 4 weeks I should be back up to 200mg.nor sure what next step is. Hopefully they work.

Mrs Sam · 24-01-2019, 07:51 AM

Definitely should have taken something. Been awake since 1.52am.

tiptoes · 24-01-2019, 09:46 AM

Do you think you could use tonight to encourage you to give it ago tomorrow? Sleep deprived is not too different to slightly groggy. Could you take it earlier than you would usually go to bed too so you have a little longer for it to clear your system.

How is today looking? Be gentle with yourself you must be shattered

Mrs Sam · 24-01-2019, 10:39 PM

Yes I've taken a zopiclone tonight. So hopefully it'll be a beyyrr night.

tiptoes · 25-01-2019, 09:31 AM

I hope you got some better sleep! How are you doing?

Mrs Sam · 26-01-2019, 10:56 PM

I did manage some sleep with the tablet thank you.

Someone broke into a house on our street earlier this evening and now I'm petrified they'll try ours. Even though there's police in the street.

yoyogirl · 28-01-2019, 11:36 PM

I know this isn’t what a lot want to hear but I get that some believe that mental
Health disorders are very much like a injury of sort, with an injury we know that that’s recovery is limited, we know that by the end of the month our busted ankle will be on the mend. But unfortunately mental health doesn’t work that ways and it’s about managing it as much you can and having periods of remissions and relapses.
You gotta remember that a mental health condition/illness is not conscious, we didn’t wake up and think to self let’s go and get depression, anxiety etc and Certainly not because we just think negatively about life.