*Positive Recovery Post* - Finally some progress

[when.will.it.end]

Hey all *waves*

I was sectioned, taken to Intensive Care and put on a feeding tube. Not happy. I was sedated for three days and woke up to find myself being fed & drips everywhere. It was awful. I was there for passing out generally rather than low weight or anything but it was still bloody awful to realise I'd been on it without my consent for a few days. The loss of control was horrible.

So it's been almost a year now since I fell into these patterns, where did the time go? I said to myself that when I moved house I would work on my eating because I would have a safe kitchen to eat & cook in. I moved house 6 days ago. AAnnnnd I've been eating extremely well every day since I moved, not weighed myself once, not binged and have been eating a decent amount of calories, at the right time, in the right way, of the right stuff. I can't believe it. I hardly had anything for a year and here I am doing it all by myself without any slip ups. I haven't even weighed myself Crazy.

I think the whole ICU feeding tube thing was a shock & a kick up the arse that I really really don't want that to happen again. I don't have any ED help so am a bit worried about how I'm going to sustain this & could do with some support? But just taking it one day at a time.

Hope y'all are alright


xxxxxxx

[[SundayGirl]]

Hii,
Im so sorry that happened to you although you seem to be taking it pretty well & realize it was probably for the best at that time?
Well done for managing to eat better these past few days, thats really amazing. Is there anyway you could get any ED help?
I think the best thing for you to do is remind yourself of why your eating better, write down any positives (health/social/emotional benifits) you have noticed & keep them where they are seen so they are a constant reminder of how well you are doing. Also, maybe write down a few reasons on why you want to recover, what you want from life etc?
Stay positive & distract yourself.
xx

[when.will.it.end]

Thanks peeps.

This is really difficult, I so badly want to stop eating altogether again. Ahhh. So far I've been doing Okay but the first few days are over and damn I feel fat.

Those are really great ideas. I'l defiantly get on that. A wake up call always helps I think. I'm pretty sure I'm too fat for ED services, that's why I've never asked for a referral. There are so many other things wrong with me it's easy to just talk about those in appointments

[fragile as glass]

Well, stop eating altogether again and you will have your control taken away again, it really is that simple.

Eat little and often and you could try distracting yourself when you eat - i.e., when I have my tea I watch Neighbours with it so I don't have to think so much about what I am doing.

You could listen to music while eating, surf the net, have company (family member/friend) to talk to (not about food or ED stuff)

Go to your GP and ask for that referral. If you don't feel you can do this alone then this is really your next option.

Good luck xx

And well done for using IC as a kick up the butt!

[when.will.it.end]

Just wanted to update and say it's going really well.

I've only weighed myself ONCE in the last two weeks. O.M.G
I've been generally eating extremely well every day. It's been two weeks now.
I haven't been exercising.
I've still been taking laxatives but still, one thing at a time.

It's possible guys

[[LittleMonster]]

Well done
You're doing great, proud of you
xxx

[MayhemBee]

Thats really good. I hope it keeps up this way. :)

[when.will.it.end]

Thank you.

I think I'm going to get a dietician cos this is too hard really...