Yo! You are completely not alone on that - ed's can hang around in the back of the mind for a while. I know it feels kinda stupid to feel like you're "over" something and then fall back, because everyone was already proud for the progress and now it's like do they need to take it back?? But the answer is that they dont. They wont. You did it once, and you can do it again. It's a really trashy feeling, and relapsing can feel like a prolonged, never-ending horror show, but I would dig into a singular coping skill to drag a spiral to a halt. Maybe reach out to one person to start, and get support to clean the slate. If people get mad about it, theyre wrong and they dont understand how this works. But yeah I would work first on *halting* the spiral before trying to move on/ignore it - like Eternal Flame suggested. U got this, and pls reach out if you need more help :)
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