Triggering (Suicide) - the triggers
oh my god. everywhere i turn. triggers. flashback triggers. flashbacks to finding him.
in such common place things. things of brightness and joy for so many, twist me inside and make me ill. show me what i saw that day. what haunts me.
balloons. helium balloons., just typing it, makes me feel so sick. so ****ing sick. my head hurts.
so many triggers. so so many. so common place, so triggering. ****, i cant take it sometimes
i cant escape them
someone make me forget what i saw. make me forget how he was. it was too horrible. he didnt look peaceful
he didnt look like he was sleeping
i feel sick
going to go blank my brain
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