cut deep

02-10-2010, 04:15 PM

all i seem to want to do is cut and very deeply the last time i cut was the second time in one day i also have the devil telling me to cut as well am on meds for them but they have been reduced by my dr because they make me out of it

all i want to do is cut so deep that ill need stitches never cut that deep before
but i want to do it cant get it out of my mind

one_step_closer · 02-10-2010, 05:15 PM

Is it you who wants to cut deep or the devil? Remember that you have control over this; thoughts don't have to equal actions. Cutting deep enough to need stitches isn't fun at all. Please try hard not to. We are all here to support you, keep talking to us. Take care.

badbadkitty13 · 02-10-2010, 05:32 PM

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Originally Posted by one_step_closer

Cutting deep enough to need stitches isn't fun at all.

^ very true. you'll have hospital staff looking down their nose at you (some hide it better than others) and the lidocaine they give to numb you while they stitch BURNS. and then while healing, theyll itch like fkn crazy and should you accidentallly rip one out while scratching said itch, youll have a really messed up scar
also, depending where you live they may keep you in hospital for up to 3 days cuz many doctors still dont get the difference between SH and suicide attempt.

02-10-2010, 07:34 PM

I think that the devil is very powerful and is influencing my thoughts but am trying not to let him do that
i feel that i need to cut because i feel out of control if i cut i will try not to go deep

badbadkitty13 · 03-10-2010, 01:01 AM

I hope you can resist and be safe. I don;t much like the sound of you being out of control and wanting to go deep. you control your weapons, not that devil. he's only trying to trick you and bring you down. i hope you can get to a safe mental state. *hug* if thats ok

03-10-2010, 01:06 PM

Ended up going to bed rather than cutting
but i still feel that i need to cut

CagedBird · 03-10-2010, 10:58 PM

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Originally Posted by RYUU

I think that the devil is very powerful and is influencing my thoughts but am trying not to let him do that
i feel that i need to cut because i feel out of control if i cut i will try not to go deep

>>>> yep.