Graphic - Feelings of Sexual Abuse
Hi i am 16 and have had dreams of being sexually abused since i was 5! DCF has been called and the Police which makes me feel worse.... I have PTSD so i tend to blank out painful memories so i only have a little discription of my dreams,
It starts out with me in my room and a man/ my dad walking
In telling me in the middle of the night "its ok baby girl daddy wants to help make you feel grown and strong lik. mommy" don't you want to be like mommy and be grown up? I said yes daddy i do want to be just like mommy..... this is were it gets blury..... ok then baby girl can you listen to daddy? Yes.
Ok shut your door and come here and sit on daddys lap
Ok baby girl this will feel really good stand up and help me with my pants and then i want you to do the same and come sit down on my lap again and that's all i see then the next morning i wake up. With bruises on my tighs , arms and pelvis area, and my bed has white sticky stuff on it and its on me..... i have been to a gynecologist for a pergnecy test and all they say is you are not a virgin and it looks like you havent been since you Were little. Please Help explain, cause i think its my fault that this happens and that i dream it!
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