a plan to help me get through something I am really dreading

lozza · 22-06-2009, 09:00 AM

Ok... this is the third time me trying to write this... the first time the post didnt get submitted cuz I think the site crashed.... and then the second time my net crashed... so yeh, hopefully I will be third time lucky lol... (oh and believe me... this will get posted cuz this time I am writing it in a word document first.... hows that for being determined lol!!)

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I am very afraid of my friend leaving this week and going on holidays. I am so scared because I talk to her so often and she is one of the very few people I can actually talk to. We talk several times each day and she is such a great support for me (more than she could ever know) I am afraid of being here without her.... of not having that contact with her... I am scared of being alone.

I was on my way home from my counselling apt today and I came up with this idea. I was thinking of maybe doing a book-like thing for her and that every day I will add a page and do something on it... and then when the 15 days were up, she would be back home and I will be able to see her! What do you guys think?

I know it sounds like a crap idea... and I am still planning it in my head... but I just thought it may be a good thing to do cuz it will keep me busy and hopefully safe from hurting myself.

Anyway just thought I’d share this, especially as I am going through a really bad time right now and I thought it may help to post something positive about a situation I am really dreading...

I have a plan - YAY

Ami · 22-06-2009, 09:33 AM

I think that sounds like a brillient plan to be honest :) Hopefully it will keep you distracted too xx

shadowedseraph · 22-06-2009, 03:17 PM

I think that sounds excellent :)

Katiee · 22-06-2009, 09:47 PM

It's not a crap idea at all! It's a great onee! (: wooo xD

lozza · 22-06-2009, 11:58 PM

thanks guys:) you are all awesome

Revival · 23-06-2009, 07:50 AM

thats a great idea Loz :) proud of you *cuddles*

Popple · 23-06-2009, 09:46 AM

That sounds like a fabulous idea love =)
Well done.

frizzly · 23-06-2009, 11:00 AM

or go in her suitcase coz she gonna miss you like crazy...... hugs i will do the same. its a fantastic idea i love it

crazykat · 23-06-2009, 11:08 AM

I think it's a great idea *hugs*

lozza · 24-06-2009, 12:58 AM

thanks guys:)

although I havnt started it yet... I really do but head is just so loud and crazy and nothing feels good or alright:(

lozza · 24-06-2009, 10:37 AM

ok so I finally started the book tonight... not really sure the stuff I'm gona put in it but I guess it can just random and I can make it up as I go along lol...

I want it to be special though and for her to like it but I am not sure how to do this... any ideas?

akita · 24-06-2009, 11:30 AM

Great idea.

Left. · 28-06-2009, 10:55 PM

thats a brilliant idea babes.
How are you getting on with it?

x

lozza · 29-06-2009, 10:42 AM

yeh is going ok...

I worked out today that I didnt put enough pages in it though... but is all fixed now:)

its not that intersting though... but I hope she likes it...
it has been good I think, makes me feel less alone...

frizzly · 29-06-2009, 12:05 PM

i miss you sooo much! i bet its amazing!!!!

Revival · 29-06-2009, 01:33 PM

glad its going ok and that its helping you, and I'm sure your friend will love it :)

lozza · 29-06-2009, 11:37 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by frizzly

i miss you sooo much! i bet its amazing!!!!

hmmm yeh thinking she will

miss you frizz!!!!
love you soooo much
*hugs*

lozza · 05-07-2009, 11:35 AM

I have missed doing so many pages in the book
I feel so bad
I am trying so hard to do it each day, but ella is so loud... yelling, screaming...

I just wish she would shut up.

I hope I am able to make up for it in the next few days... I just want to make my friend smile... for her to know how much I love and care about her... showing her how much she has helped me.

I just wish ella would just shut up:(