Want to harm, but things are good.

[Celticroots]

Things are going well right now. I haven't cut or bruised in several months. But the urge to cut specifically has come back. And it's like part of me wants to be struggling emotionally because than I could cut again. Like I'd have a reason?

[PassedExpectations]

I can sympathize with that feeling... like I still want to make negative choices but need a justification to do so... as much as harming, and other negative choices are unhelpful overall, we did get some benefit out of them (otherwise we wouldn't have kept doing them) and I guess it makes sense that sometimes we miss the benefits, even if the negatives outweighed them by a lot. i don't really know what to do about it though. Maybe it is best to accept it but choose not to act on it?