*Positive Recovery Post* - Letting go of this mess.
I just came into some money & so now I can go back onto jenny craig which gives me healthy meals & so I can eat proper meals & lose weight & not binge & not wreck my insides with laxatives. And not even obsess really, all the planning is done for me. And they oversea it so I don't go all crazy again.
I'm so scared!
I'm scared this isn't the right thing to do, or that it won't work, but, I am trying to remember it did work well last time. I'm also scared because it means committing to getting better and actually looking after myself.
I haven't actually looked after myself for ages but once I start eating properly the healthy exercise should just roll on with it. And this means getting, well... better.
And I think I am almost ready to be ready for that.
:/
I know looking after yourself can be really hard. When living with an ED we seem to take all our emotions out on our body and not give it the care lofe an respect it needs. After all we couldnt do anything without it!
I cant profess to anything about this plan, or if its healthy or how it works but it sounds like you've had positive experience of it before.
What scares you most about getting better?
“Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles.”
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Eeep. Yes, failing.
But I am feeling a lot more positive having spoken to my father, who told me I am very determined & he highlighted my achievements in the past and I then reminded myself how much I enjoy being well (and even the food on this plan) and so, I am feeling more promising that I am just nervous as this is the beginning... but if I can take baby steps towards getting better... it should help.
Thank you Kel. I think I'm going to need all the encouragement I can get xx
I really don't have many words right now, but Aimee..you are so strong.
You can do this, I believe in you. It might seem hard now, and yeah, it is going to be hard. But I know that you have the strength to do this. Keep fighting, you can get through this!!
I'm really glad that he is there to be supportive of you Aimmee. having someone in 'real life' can be such a bleessing when things are in the process of change.
Re: fear of failure.
I use to be scared of failure - in a more general sense. Over time though i realised that life is about making mistakes and learning from them...yes we can fall, but we can also get back up. Failing would be to never try.
Everythings a learning experience.
ps my typing was even worse than usual in the post.
“Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles.”
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its great that you dad is being so supportive i hope this jenny craig plan works well for you and that you can carry on from there when it is over. i know its hard to stay on top of preparing your own meals but it can be something for you to learn to enjoy
Thank you all so so so much. I'm going to call them now. Slightly shaking ^_^ Silly.
Thank you. :)
edit: I called and she was lovely & pointed out some of my strengths already (gosh thankfully I was feeling terrible) and I'm going in there in about half an hour (!) for a weigh in and to start the program. Eeeeep. :/
Last edited by Snow White. : 04-08-2010 at 12:37 AM.
It went really well, and I am feeling very positive and it just feels great :)
The consultant was really supportive too, said not to stress too much about exercise in the first week just get used to the food.
One tiny problem ^_^ was that the form asked if you had an eating disorder and I said no, but they're informing my doctor I am starting it and I'm scared she's going to think it's a bad idea and tell them about it. Hopefully though, that won't happen.
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