Kathryn ~ i know how you feel, i felt the same way for a long time, till i found someone who loves me for me, and he takes all the sh** i throw at him, and he stands firm and supports me. it will get better, your so young it took me till i was nearly 30 before i found the right one (and i went through alot of bad ones first).
I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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No I know but like, I don't even get tester relationships, I'm not even close to someone for a little while because it just gets screwed up before it can go anywhere.
sorry to 'intrude' once more, but the information with my mum...yeah it didn't work, she just laughed and told me I was being silly and pathetic, but yeah, hurt a bit but I'm sure I'll be ok.
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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You're not intruding :)
I'm sorry she was insensitive and laughed... Maybe she's just heavily in denial? I know my Mum is, she always has these little rants about how people use the word depression too freely and that only a few people are truly depressed and I just know she's subliminally having a go at me.
I'm just feeling lonely is all, pretty crap feeling tbh
Wiggle ~ I'm really sorry that your mum reacted that way, as kitkat said, maybe she is in denial, maybe she doesn't want to think of you being 'ill' and this is how she is coping with it. sorry you've not got her support, have you anyone else? don't forget you always have us and your never intruding. xx
Kathryn ~ sorry you mum is like that, you always have us for support. *holds out a hand for you to hold* xx
Cheryl ~ I'm glad you had a good day. xx
I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy
I do have other support, the most coming from my dads girlfriend. It's not that I don't appreciate her or all of your support, I don't know, I guess I just need my mum at this present moment and she 'isn't here' so to speak.
Sorry just popping in, i need to go internet phone hunting. Phone decided to die, looking it up online it seems the whole screen needs replaced (being a touchscreen phone) and i know that can be pricey, and considering you can buy the phone new for £50-60 no point. But i have no idea what i want so this might take while.
Went to the docs, was really pointless, she couldnt give me any other medication, instread she is refering me to a back clinic and if nothing then she will consider giving me morphine based tablets but doesnt really want to do that. And that he really shouldnt have given me a time frame for getting better, the usual doc i see. However going about my other issue i had to get a blood test so they ate testing me for PCOS and my hormone levels.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
mari im sorry things are improving much hun, sending healing vibes you way.
just got home from going to shops with mum, found a letter from the teaching council asking for money, **** off and thanks for reminding me how rubbish i am not working and thanks for reminding me of all the crap that happened. why have they not got it in their records that i am no longer working there, just **** off.
hey guys, i need some advice, ive just been diagnosed with BPD (well, actually i was diagnosed in march, but ive just found out) but i dont really understand it, can anyone help eplain it to me please?
thanks
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
I'm so sorry everyone, i've gone from barely needing anything to being so needy. i hate feeling like this, i just feel like crying and theres no one around and i have to go out playing skittles in about half hour and i really really really don't want to go :(
Last edited by ferretmonster : 15-07-2010 at 08:26 PM.
Sorry, I have probably missed you before you go out to play skittles. Hope it goes okay for you there. You don't need to apologise for needing people at the moment. We all go through times when we need others and that's okay :)
I'm okay thanks. I'm out of hospital at the moment. Just waiting for funding to go to a therapeutic community. x
I dont know what to make of all this i hop you guys might be able to help. My frineds keep telling me they think i have BPD and its got to the point where im worried sick that i do. Ive brought it up with my therpist the otherday and she said 'Is it improtant if i do or do not?' and we will talk more about it next week. I dont know ive im jumping to conclusions here but is she jsut not telling me becasue i do or somthing. Now it keeps going around my head and i cant stop thinking about it, i dont want to have it, but will it make it easyer to 'fix' me? will it stop me getting a carere as a nurse on the NHS? im scared it will give a bad impression of mee, as looking at all the websites it jsut comes acroos as no one wants to know people with BPD casue there jsut arquard and manplative. not im freaking out and crying and panicking i dont even know whats going on in my head. Im scared now im comming acrooss as a hypercondract. Im not i jsut want to be better :@ ;-;
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
