Could i have some support please?

[xlaurenx]

Hi...
I could really do with some support. For the last week my mood has generally been low. I oded last sunday. I havent changed any clothes or done my hair in a week. Since weds i have felt low though its crept up on me. I cant stop crying, I feeling nothing. I cant shake off this low mood. Terrfied of going into full blown crisis this doesnt feel like EUPD. I spoke to crisis tonight their calling me tomorrow and suggested med increase. I am shitting it that i will end up back in hospital. Last time went into crisis friday afternoon admitted the next evening. But i arent sure if thats what i need.

[Accidentally Abstract]

Hi Lauren, I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling so much, but well done for reaching out for help. It makes sense that you'd be really scared of going back to hospital - were there any positive things you got out of the admission last time at all? Is there anything you feel like you could do self-care wise for the meantime, or is that just out of the question with how you're feeling? I hope the crisis people you speak to are helpful tomorrow, and hang on to the hope that the meds increase might help your mood.

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry you're struggling. Can you think of anything that is contributing to your mood being so low? Maybe there are small things you can change or work through. I'm glad you spoke to crisis and I hope they are helpful. A med increase might be a good thing to try, it could hopefully keep you out of hospital if that's not what you think you need right now. Be sure to communicate what you think will help if you can think of anything. I hope things start to improve soon. Be kind and gentle with yourself.

[xlaurenx]

Hi.
The admission... my risks increased as i was wanting to end.my life. So the staff stepped it up so i couldnt. It didnt keep me fully safe at times but it kept me alive over all. Everything feels out of the question.

[xlaurenx]

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Originally Posted by one_step_closer

I'm sorry you're struggling. Can you think of anything that is contributing to your mood being so low? Maybe there are small things you can change or work through. I'm glad you spoke to crisis and I hope they are helpful. A med increase might be a good thing to try, it could hopefully keep you out of hospital if that's not what you think you need right now. Be sure to communicate what you think will help if you can think of anything. I hope things start to improve soon. Be kind and gentle with yourself.

I cant think of anything.
Crisis werent very helpful sadly.

[one_step_closer]

Sorry to hear that. Are they going to see you again? Maybe if they could give you some options of what might help you would be able to decide instead of trying to think yourself.

[xlaurenx]

Yes. They dont seem to get that. They put it on me and i have said this doesnt feel like eupd. Crisis guy said they only here to deal with the eupd not the depression

[Pi.R^2]

I wish I was surprised at the EUPD bias they've got but I'm honestly not.

Is the meds increase going ahead?

[xlaurenx]

Yeah tomorrow i think. Their consultant is going to email my gp. But crisis said i need to contact them too. I was almost crying asking them why i need to as consultant will hold more weight. He didnt get it and said i needed to. I said this feels more like depression then eupd

[one_step_closer]

Will it be antidepressants that are being increased?

[xlaurenx]

Yes it will be. I was meant to have a call from crisis or cmht. I have chased up both. Still nothing.

[one_step_closer]

Since you feel things are more depression related maybe the increase will help. Will you keep trying to get in touch with someone?

[xlaurenx]

I am hoping it will help yes

[one_step_closer]

How are you doing today?

[xlaurenx]

Ended up on the wrong side of something high. Police turned up. Currently in a and e and going to be assessed here

[Accidentally Abstract]

Oh no, I'm sorry Lauren, that's a hell of a lot to deal with but I'm glad you're safe. I hope they offer you some support and safety.

[one_step_closer]

That sounds scary. How did the assessment go?

[xlaurenx]

I am annoyed i didnt go through with it :(

My friend says i arent safe and need to be sectioned.
The assessment went ok. They emailed cmht and duty and my cpn to get intouch. No one called me today.

[Pi.R^2]

Are you still in A&E?

[xlaurenx]

Nope. My cpn didnt call me yesterday. I spoke to my cmht very briefly and my cpn said i know my routes to safety. Previously they have said i have capacity to make that choice ( about doing myself in) and they can offer me a appt on the 25th of this month...