So I've been looking for a stable job for a couple of years now. At the moment I'm delivering papers as it's the only thing I've been able to get, although I only earn on average $30/week, sometimes as little as $15 - impossible to live on. I've moved back in with my parents as I used up all of my savings for rent and bills when I was living independently. I rarely go out as I don't have a car and public transport here is very expensive and there aren't any unemployed/low income concessions (travelling from here to city centre for work/volunteering costs about $50 a week). It's just really hard, and I hate how depression ruins my whole life. I actually really do want to go back to work, I'm a university graduate etc, but my spotty work history and mental illness just makes it hard. My partner is frustrated with me because I appear apathetic, but in reality the constant rejections (literally like 1000+ applications over maybe a 3 year period - I've really applied for everything) leaves me feeling worthless, like I'm not good enough. I mean, how can you believe in yourself if all the feedback you get is rejection?
I even got desperate and recently did a Cert III in Aged Care, but low and behold, the industry is flooded with cert III jobseekers and there aren't many jobs available anymore. Sigh. I'm just finding it hard to keep trying. Everyone around me has come to the conclusion that I'm a lost cause, which is hurtful as well.
