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I have messed up my life, are there any other options besides the 2 horrible ones that I see?
Warning: long and whiny post
My (26f) problem is that I'm a stupid baby adult still living at home. I live in Colorado where rent is extremely high, I don't know anybody or have any friends I can move out with. I am not educated and I do not feel like staying here while I study because I sleep on a couch in the basement and my stuff is crammed into a corner, there's literally no room for me and I'm already so old.
I did not qualify for the airforce, blue collar work did not at all suit me and I hated it (gave it a shot for 2 years).
The only options I see left are to sell my soul for a college dorm and education, or move out to live in poverty in the ghetto which is terrifying because I have no street smarts and am physically very small.
To borrow the money it would take for both tuition and room/board is mind boggling. Even if I go for computer science, I'm afraid I'd never get it paid off.
I can't believe I've screwed up my life this much, the reason I don't have many friends and no boyfriends is I can barely look at myself in the mirror. I am incredibly ashamed and humiliated to be sleeping on my parents couch in their basement at 26. I can't face anyone, I feel so unintelligent, worthless and embarrassed.
What is the smartest, least humiliating option left?
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