I'm so sorry to hear that you self harmed. Like already mentioned it is quite frustrating when you can't always pin point reasons why we relapse. Sometimes there is no clear cut reason why and sometimes the urge can come from absolutely no where. I can relate to that, I went through it just yesterday. It's hard but but maybe having some distractions ready would be helpful for next time. I myself have a distraction box with a variety of different things in it to do depending on what I feel like doing, I also have in it some fidget toys that I find incredibly helpful for me (keeping my hands busy really helps when the sh urges arise!)
Sometimes writing can also be helpful. It doesn't need to make sense just write out what ever comes to mind. This can sometimes really help and you may even be able to identify what the trigger was, or any patterns that may lead you to want to sh.
I really hope that you are doing ok. I'm thinking of you!
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