When you feel that there's no goodness inside of you, and you feel the utterly most worst and evil person... how do you stand up in the face of that, dispute that?
I really hate myself right now.
My personality was already messed up, and then the abuse over the years skewed it beyond recognition. I feel such a bad person. I don't feel real. The only real thing about me is that I'm.. well, you get the picture.
I can't bear this.
I can barely respect myself.
I just want to hurt myself.
I don't want to be a woman.
I'm just a thing. An empty, aching, lonely, burden.
But I ache for love so much.
But there's no point if I can't find it within myself for me, for others.
One thing maybe you could do to try and create some self love is to do something nice for yourself each day. Just something small. Like make yourself a cup of tea when you're feeling a bit sad. Or cuddle up in the duvet when you're feeling a bit crap. Just something small for yourself each day - you deserve to have love and you deserve to look after the person inside you.
Im sorry you're having such a hard time at the moment,
Mx
If you are looking for a way to try and get your self in a better place self esteem wise you could probably try giving yourself a (different) compliment everyday?... Or maybe try to surround yourself with people who compliment you, and stop exposing yourself to people who put you down? Well, I'm sorry you feel this way about yourself, and I feel the same often. I hope this helps, and I hope you feel better about yourself soon. *hugs*
"Wish that I could cry,
Fall apon my knees,
Find a way to lie,
About the home I'll never see"
Superman by Five For Fighting
I struggle with this a lot - how can I like myself when all I see is the sick, disgusting evil apparent to me. How could anyone like me?
How to challenge self-hate... an old T suggested I try to listen to the feedback other people give me. And surprisingly, it is not full of the awful things I see in myself, but instead of positive qualities that I originally discarded /twisted about myself. For example; someone once said that I was a good listener, when I'd been telling myself all along that I was just a nosy little bitch. Someone else said that I was brave, when all I'd ever berated myself about was how cowardly I was.
Katie - listen to the things people say to you. I know I am glad you are here because you are kind, compassionate, intelligent and supportive, to name but a few of the positive things I think about you. Often I find myself wishing I was more like you, because we need more people like you in this world - people who are willing to help others, who are appreciative of the constant learning we must do to achieve self-awareness, who have the courage to work towards complete self-acceptance and the bravery to share that journey so that others may draw inspiration from it.
Challenge the self-hate. Because you are certainly none of the things you think about yourself.
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
I don't think your personality is "messed up". Everybody has problems. Abuse makes problems more intense, but it also makes you stronger. Maybe think of all the things you've learned from your negative experiences, like how to empathize with others, etc.
Stereotypes are the epitome of human laziness.
- me
i dont have advice but i struggle with same thing you are not alone at all
im here if you need me
<3
we are the fallen
we are the wounded
we are the shattered
we are the unheard
we are the brave
we are the strong we are Survivors. and..... we are the future
we fallen can still rise by the wings of hope that lifts us~
I skip looking in the mirrors for weeks at times, because I can't stand looking at the girl looking back at me.
I think that the only way to deal with this, is to figure out why you feel the way you do. I think it helped me a bit.
But the most important thing to remember is that we are all important and valuable people. We're special and we're beautiful and we're stronger than anyone else, because scar tissue is so much stronger than regular skin. We're survivors, because we haven't given up.
If u ever need anyone to talk to, my PM box is open!
<3Lira
If you think the scars on the outside are bad you don't want to see the ones on the inside.
Self-injury is a sign of distress not madness. We should be congratulated on having found a way of surviving.- Cory Anderson
