im so tired of fighting issurance
I am chronically ill and physically disabled (even if it's a more manageable type, I'm still disabled) and I know that the way I look is part of what makes doctors hesitant to help. I've recently gotten a few doctors to believe me and start trying to help.
I drove a little over an hour to talk to a neurologist, and she put me on one medication. it didn't work. I waited 3 months and drove over an hour again. She tells me that she can't prescribe the medication she wants to prescribe me because of insurance issues. she has to put me on a different type of medication that may or may not work, and I have to be on that for at least a month to see if it works at all.
I know that all of this means I'm getting help, but it's so overwhelming. My medications change so fast, I take more meds in the morning than my grandmother and that's still missing 80% of my issues. it's starting to set in that all of this is real, that I'm not just overreacting, or making it up. I have genuine issues, I'm in and out of hospitals instead of going to class or hanging out with my friends. I'm losing (or have already lost) my teen years and childhood to either trauma, financial hardships, or medical conditions.
I just want to be able to manage my pain, but I have to battle insurance companies to keep myself alive. I am tired. I don't understand why I have to fight so hard and wait so long to just not be in pain.
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