I'm sure you know it's not a good idea to stop meds without discussing it with a doctor. Do you not think they would consider it if you were to discuss it? I'm surprised they haven't noticed, if you've not been sleeping. I'm glad you got some sleep last night though. I hope it goes well with the doctor.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I know. And I wish I didnt have to stop all my meds because I've been having seizures which are horrible and the voices and the not sleeping. But I can't drink and taking meds requires drinking.
Thank you
I've just seen the doctor
She is putting me on a depot again but a different one that I haven't tried before so we shall see
I'm having the test dose today
No sign of going home at the moment which is frustrating
But the doctor is nice at least
She didn't say I was delusional, just that my thoughts are unusual which is better and I can understand that
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I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I think drinking and taking meds would eventually help with the voices and everything else so you could finally get some peace. I hope the depot is helpful. How are you today?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I know I should but it feels too hard
I can't go against what the voices say
I had a seizure this morning which sucks.
I didn't tell the staff about it because I don't want them to fuss
I feel mostly ok now anyway. Physically anyway
Mentally I'm quite low
I'm fed up of being here
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Why can't you go against the voices? You have managed to in some little ways and I think you could manage to go against them bit by bit and nothing awful would happen. Horrible things are happening to you right now with the seizures and your mood etc. To get out of there you're going to have to work with the staff not the voices. I know it's scary and difficult but your life is outside of hospital and I know you want to be in it.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
How do you know that for sure? What proof have the voices offered? You know that people often hear voices when they're unwell, especially ones that are cruel and want you to do horrible things to yourself. I appreciate if you can't see this as unwellness right now but please hold on because in the past things have always become clearer and more settled.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Why do you think the voices have it right if they're not providing proof? Why are you just willing to go along with this huge thing? You don't have to.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Remember that feelings don't equal facts. You seem to be taking this all from one side, from the voices, and not considering the other side. It wouldn't be selfish to stay alive because you want to...and because your family would want you to, and your friends, and us here. Everyone else won't die if you are alive, they will continue to die just as humans do but it won't be your fault. Your death would be one death too many, a death that would have needlessly happened.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
The voices are powerful
More powerful than any of the doctors I've seen
Thats why I believe them
The doctor said to trust them but I don't know if I can
They are so stuck in their mindset that it's all mental illness
I know people want me to stay alive
They say that here too
And I do feel loads of guilt for having to do this
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
But there have been times when they haven't affected you so much? If you look back you go through periods where things are really awful but you always get to the point where you look back and can see things more clearly. You can do that again. It will be hard work to challenge things bit by bit but I truly think you can do it.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
