I can't stand living like this anymore. So I've run myself into the ground and taken laxatives. I know it'll hurt. I know it's bad. I know it might not even help. But I want to do it anyway.
Chances of me binging again tomorrow are as high as they usually are. But I'll have the laxatives and the exercise, right? Maybe I'll be all better then. Maybe, I'll be all better.
I don't know what the hell is going on with me.
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Don't worry sweet, *cuddles*.
Now that you've tried them, if you find that they don't work, like it'll take away the curiosity and you won't want to try again? I can't explain what I mean. Now you've done it, just because it happened doesn't mean you need to keep taking them? There's a hundred reasons never to take them again, and we all slip up now and again but it's part of working through these things. You'll be okay <3
Thanks for the hugs, much appreciated. I just don't know why this has all suddenly come up just so recently, I was doing so well. It's sad. I'm sad.
And yes, I know I need to see a therpaist so can we like, drop that one now? I know I have to go. My last one was entirely inappropriate and I don't want to have to face the thought of it right at the minute, but yes, I know I have to go and I'm seeing my doctor soon, too, for a blood test.
You know what I'm not going to preach about anything you've posted because you know it all and if you don't go read the articles in the Advice team area!!
But hun I do want to say to you - STEP AWAY FROM THE LAXATIVES They are evil, they don't work and they **** you up. By the time they get around to doing the deed your body has digested the food - yep all they do is cause you to spend ages on the loo in agony. But Waimee hun the effects of laxatives don't just last in the short term they last in the long term as well. Whilst I dont know of any permament damage done to my body due to the ed my body is ****ed because of laxative abuse and because of that hun I can't beg you enough to leave the laxatives alone.
xoxox
When we lose twenty pounds... we may be losing the twenty best pounds we have! We may be losing the pounds that contain our genius, our humanity, our love and honesty. ~Woody Allen
Is a chocolate muffin loving glitter ball
i can only ditto kel/cam. laxis are horrid and evil and they do f*ck all. my body's also still f*cked from them.
please take care lovie <3
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Thank you for the advice & support guys, it means a lot to me and it helps to know I'm not alone.
Kel, I've lately been eating healthily and then binging, I think it might be mostly emotional cause I'm going through a lot and this has heightened over the last few days with my parents arguing over money, while they separate.
& as for support, I had a therapist but had to leave him due to inappropriate comments, haven't replaced him yet but I do attend group once a week and I'm seeing my doctor soon.
I know, I'm sorry Trace, I'm just really sensitive about it at the moment, but I do understand. I've been a bit emotional about the situation lately so it sparked that in me; sorry.
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
