*Positive Recovery Post* - Going To Tell My Therapist Today

Ihavetobelieve33 · 17-07-2012, 02:51 PM

I am freaking out! Hahaha. I am going to tell my therapist today about my eating habits and I am really afraid of what she will say.

I'm going to write it down so I don't trip over my words. I am posting this, not to blab, but to ask for support and strength! I really really will need it today.

Ailsa · 17-07-2012, 02:53 PM

Hey Jolie,

I'm glad you've decided to do this, it's the best option - I really hope your therapist is helpful!

What time is your appointment at? x

Ihavetobelieve33 · 17-07-2012, 06:48 PM

It's at 6 pm . And I am getting doubts ! I'm scared.

horseluvr · 17-07-2012, 06:52 PM

Congrats on having the confidence to do this! The first step is always the hardest! Good luck, my thoughts are with you :)

Fire Fly · 17-07-2012, 07:58 PM

Goooodluck. Hope it went well hun. Let us know how it goes x

Ihavetobelieve33 · 17-07-2012, 10:32 PM

Thank you all. The appt is in 30 minutes and I am getting 'cold feet' if you will :O

Fire Fly · 18-07-2012, 01:08 AM

I'm guessing you must have had it by now....? How was it? Xxx

Ihavetobelieve33 · 18-07-2012, 04:59 AM

It was hard. I wrote it all down and gave her and she was worried. She told me that I am dealing with an ED. <\3

Ailsa · 18-07-2012, 01:31 PM

I'm so proud of you for doing that - well done. When will you be seeing her again? x

Ihavetobelieve33 · 18-07-2012, 05:27 PM

I see her again on the 23rd. I think that's this coming Monday. I didn't give her all the stuff I printed. I just gave her the things that I wrote down that day. I had printed two posts from RYL that I'd written a bit ago but I think I'm going to give those to her next time. It was just... a lot to deal with. And thanks to all of you and my RYL friend Kat for the support! I had promised Kat and her daughter Riley that I would tell my therapist at that appointment, and I'm glad I did because I always keep my promises and if I hadn't promised I wouldn't have told her.. and I think I would have eventually died.

Ihavetobelieve33 · 18-07-2012, 05:27 PM

I love all of you guys *triumphant hugs*

Ailsa · 18-07-2012, 06:28 PM

This makes me happy :) Proud of you lovely! <3

Ihavetobelieve33 · 19-07-2012, 12:07 AM

I'm so glad this makes you happy! Thank you so much. I'm so.. I don't even know.. pumped, I wanna cry! Hahaha <3

horseluvr · 19-07-2012, 05:37 AM

Congratulations! Amazing that you told her, I am so glad to hear you are getting the help you deserve
Sending hugs your way!

Ihavetobelieve33 · 19-07-2012, 03:49 PM

Thank you! <3 *a million hugs*

But... I am so scared that if I don't follow my therapists rules/suggestions... that I won't make it.

Ailsa · 19-07-2012, 04:21 PM

Jolie, your therapist is there to help you, and I think the best way of making sure you have a chance of making it is my following their rules and suggestions. Do you trust them to know what they're doing?

Why are you scared of this?

Ihavetobelieve33 · 19-07-2012, 06:34 PM

I trust the rules and suggestions.. and my therapist definitely knows what she's doing and she cares. I'm scared because I know a huge part of me wants to just keep doing what I'm doing the way I want to do it because it feels good.. but then I'll die if it gets worse.

Ailsa · 19-07-2012, 08:07 PM

I think that's a legitimate fear, but maybe that will spur you on to overcome it? I think it's normal that a part of you wants to go back, and it's that part you have to tame... You can do it lovely. If you ever want a chat or feel a bit uncertain, please feel free to PM me xxx

Ihavetobelieve33 · 19-07-2012, 11:57 PM

Thank you! I definitely feel uncertain but I talked to my psych about some of it.. and she reassured me a bit that ED's have to be REALLY bad to have organ failure and I am far from that. Which is good... but every ED has the potential to do damage. I am just so scared and confused :'( *hugs*