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25-01-2017, 07:38 AM
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#101
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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I'm trying to just let myself settle in. But it's hard. I'm so tired and scared. U tossed and turned all night. But at least in allowed a cuppa in bed. My head is so sore. I want to be at home with all my things. It's so bare here. I look awful so tired and they weighed me and I'm too heavy. And sorry my brain is wiring.
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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25-01-2017, 10:05 AM
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#102
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Never knowing...a helping hand or hell to pay?
Join Date: Dec 2005
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With regards the 'bareness' could friends e.g Jodie etc bring you some little things to brighten your room a little?
With regards weight would you consider your weight to be too heavy for someone else?
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'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
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25-01-2017, 10:08 AM
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#103
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: UK
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Do you know if you can receive post? I'll send you some stuff to put in your room or I could send it to Jodie's. I hope today goes well beautiful xx
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Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
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25-01-2017, 12:18 PM
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#104
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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I want to go home
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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25-01-2017, 12:41 PM
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#105
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90's B*tch
Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: Hyrule
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Hey lovely
I know it can be really really hard at first with these places but it does get easier and you will settle into the routine and everything. You just have to stick with it. It will be worth it in the long run x
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I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Who else is fine?!?!?
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25-01-2017, 03:36 PM
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#106
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Scotland
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I know it's hard, but give it a chance. It will take a while to settle, but hopefully this will all be worth it. You are getting the help you need and deserve.
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25-01-2017, 05:16 PM
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#107
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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Thanks guys.
The weight is too high for someone of my height in my head. I'd say it was on the high end of normal for anyone my height tbh.
I'm trying to give it time but it's scary. I am settling in a lot more today which helps but I still feel like a spare part though at least I had the space to say that today.
I can receive post here which is good. And as I'll be going home weekends I'd be happier to get it there.
There's some charity shops close by which I want to raid for some nice bits and bobs as well as bringing some stuff from home.
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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25-01-2017, 08:03 PM
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#108
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Voldemort's Bitch
Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: Everywhere
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I've got some spare fairy lights if you're allowed them?
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Imperfection is underrated.
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25-01-2017, 08:05 PM
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#109
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Never forgetting to be awesome
Join Date: Mar 2006
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Originally Posted by chinahorse
The weight is too high for someone of my height in my head.
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It's really good that that that's in your head Lillie and hopefully soon you'll be able to start working on feelings like that.
How did you feel when you were able to let someone know you were still feeling like a spare part?
It's understandably scary right now but it won't always feel like that lovely. I wonder if it might help to talk to some of the other people there about how they felt when they first came when you get to know them?
Do you get any free times in the day where you can plan nice things for yourself e.g coffee, getting your nails etc?
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You cannot get through a single day without having an impact on the world around you What you do makes a difference, and you have to decide what kind of difference you wish to make.
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28-01-2017, 01:44 PM
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#110
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: London
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How is it going Lillie ? Thinking of you xx
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29-01-2017, 10:25 PM
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#111
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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I'm all out of brave.
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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29-01-2017, 10:36 PM
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#112
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Scotland
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It's okay not to feel brave too, but I think you still are brave. How are things?
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30-01-2017, 02:59 AM
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#113
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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I want to go home. I have such a scary day today and I don't wanna do it. I can't do 3 types of therapy and cook for everyone.
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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30-01-2017, 05:05 AM
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#114
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Never knowing...a helping hand or hell to pay?
Join Date: Dec 2005
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Don't have many words but I think you've been so brave x
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'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
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30-01-2017, 09:53 AM
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#115
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: London
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Hugs you are being so brave Hun x
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30-01-2017, 02:19 PM
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#116
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We can try. We can always try.
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Your mum's bedroom
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That sounds overwhelming and challenging.
Are there any adjustments that could be made to make it a bit easier for you?
I understand this is scary, but I am gonna repeat myself here: is it not a lot scarier to go back home and be back to where you were before?
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the sun
the moon
the truth
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30-01-2017, 03:56 PM
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#117
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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I'm going to ask to move cooking groups. Individual was a nightmare.
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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30-01-2017, 05:00 PM
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#118
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: London
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What is the difference Hun? I'm sure they will understand it is early days and you didn't know how overwhelming it would be. X
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01-02-2017, 03:28 PM
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#119
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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I feel really triggered to burn and very vulnerable. I'm not sure I even want to stay safe let alone at the cassel at this point. I'm not a good enough contribution to the community.
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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01-02-2017, 03:38 PM
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#120
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Forum Mod
Join Date: Jul 2006
Location: UK
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I am sorry you are triggered and feeling vulnerable.
I can't imagine how difficult this must be for you right now. Is there anyone there you can reach out to?
It seems at the moment every option available to you is difficult and painful and hard. In times like this I try to keep looking to the option which gives me the most options moving forward.
In what way are you not a good enough contribution to the community? It is early days, these things take time. You contribute to our little community here. You have a lot to offer any community. Keep hanging in there.
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In my dreams I slew the dragon
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