Happy 5 years of being a star, Granda P. I miss you, Smiler. It haunts me that you'd have been so proud of me, but so disgusted with them, and I'm comforted that you passed less than a month before the family fell apart. Breathe in the stardust, take care of the moon and shine bright tonight so that I know that you know I love you.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Eight years and this day always brings back a stabbing pain in my heart ♥ Not a day goes by that I don't think about you ♥
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♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
As your second birthday creeps nearer and nearer, I wonder how long until I'm supposed to stop counting. I see you in some of the two-year-olds at work. In their smiles and big hugs and two-year-old antics. I hope you are safe, and warm, and loved. I don't know if it's wrong to think of you as still growing, but I do. Love you always, beautiful.
Sleep tight my angel.
I don't know what else to really say to you, i'm still in shock about the whole situation.
At least your not suffering the pain you must of been feeling!!
I love you loads babe and im sure Ill see you again one day.
Sleep tight and shine bright angel.
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
I'm sorry I didn't get on with life as you probably wanted me to.
I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye the last time I saw you, and I'm sorry that I didn't go to the funeral kind of thing there was. I know it wasn't a funeral, because you were burnt (I think).
I would love to know where you are now, so I could say goodbye after 8 years.
It is eating me up from the inside that I didn't get a chance to say goodbye. And I'm sorry that I killed you.
You survived the abuse.
You're gonna survive the recovery.
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Hey Matt,
I think it's time to say goodbye. Not forever. I will never forget the memories and the laughs and the tears. I will never forget the day you died. But, I need to let you go. This year, I didn't even realise that something major was happening on the date. And when I did, I was glad. Super, super glad. It'll be the first time for 7 years that I won't be alone. I think it's good that I didn't instinctively remember when the date as mentioned. You never wanted me to mourn you, or to cling onto your memory.
I think I'm moving on Matt. It's a bit scary, but it has been 7 long years. I'd like to think you'd be proud of me. You'd certainly approve of my friends :P
So, this is not goodbye. Not really. Just, farewell until we meet on the other side. I know you're in a better place now. I'm 10% confident, what ever the after life is, it's better than what you went through here and that makes this a lot easier. So, it makes it ok when I say I hope we don't meet for many years to come. Things are ok at the moment. That'll probably change, but for now. It's good. And I know that'd make you happy :]
I miss you Dean even though i never knew you all that well, you were my second cousin, and i heard how you took your own life i saw how my mum and nana and poppy cried and i know they still miss you .
Great nana, i miss you very muchand now your great great grandson is 4. I know that i was mean to you when i went over to your house by sneaking up on you and saying boo of which i am sorry for. We all mias very much :c
Have you ever sat there and wondered ‘why am I still here? I don’t even want to be here. I haven’t wanted to be here for so long. What’s keeping me here?’ And then you realize the answer is nothing. And that scares you even more than the fact that you don’t want to be here anymore.
You'd be 7 this month. I can't believe I was ever close to having you. I never got to grieve and that still has an impact on me. I wonder, are you 7 in heaven, or still a baby?
I miss coming to see you both at your house with the family & I miss the shephards/cottage (not certain which it actually was, come to think of it) pie which nobody else will ever be able to match. I miss getting a selection box every year from you & it being so predictable, & your offers of sandwiches for the car ride home. & us all being a little happy family. I'm really glad that things were how they were when I was younger, thank you for being lovely grandparents.
It has been a few months since you died, i still treasure the memories we had together when we were IP. when you ALWAYS used to beat me on mariokart on rainbow road, when the staff let us make a fort in the main lounge.
i miss you.
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