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Hello
Okay so i'm kinda new and i decided to write something here. So here it goes: My name is Katja, but you can just create a nickname if you prefer anything else. So i'm still in school and i came to RYL because i need help because I realised SH doesnt lead me anywhere good after i had a talk with my biology teacher who ''kindly'' sudggested that if i stop doing it that she wont tell my mum who (infortunatley) also works in my high school. I was bullied since i can remember and started do SH because one day when i was crying in my bed i had a knife beside me and just wanted to feel physical pain over psychical. That was somwhere around the age of 12. I never had ED of any kind, but people say i'm anorexic just because i'm not fat, even though i eat alot but i still aint fat or anything. My buliing started when my best friend from practically kindergarden decided that i'm competition for her and that she has to make a stop to it. that was somewhere at the age of 8. She is the popular girl at school and leads the whole school. she told everyone to hate me and so im alone since than. i have one new best friend but i cant tell her about my problems, because she is too fragile inside. it would totaly destroy her. i have problems with guys. because everyone was and still is telling me i'm ugly i'm always trying to find guys who would think i'm beautifull and love me but when i find them i dont belive them and i find myself hurting them. My parents think i'm their perfect little girl and are in denial. but about that later. I have a brother, 3 years older, who is perfect. he's great at school, doesnt go out very often, has friends, has a perfect relatonship, his girlfriend is perfect (or at least i thought she is) and he is perfect in sports. my Parents want me to be exatcly like him. to be perfect. But i'm not. when my mum first saw my cuts she just said: make sure i never see this again. and that was all about this subject. i didnt even bother to tell her again. if my dad found out he'd kill me. so thats out of the question too. Oh i've written alot already. sorry. there is more. but i wont bother you with that. i also have trouble talking to people so im not good at making friends. and im a creep for many vievs of my personality. but if anyone needs any help i'm here to help. i want to help as many people as i can. so if you want contact me.
Stay strong people :)
Last edited by katka_meow : 03-11-2012 at 11:11 PM.
Reason: typing problems.
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