I don't know if this is the correct forum but I need help. I'm currently
in the hospital for suicidal urges and C-PTSD caused by a lot of abuse.
I'm set to be discharged on Monday, so in 3 days. I am now hearing a
voice that I once heard a long time ago but went away. She is telling me
I'll never get better and all of this is bullsh*t which I know isn't true. I asked
her what her name is but she just says "Call me what you will, I am you."
But she's not, she's just in my head. But she's saying that if I do all the
things I'm set to do after discharge to stay safe, like to go support groups
and therapy and such, that I'll get hurt in the long run and I shouldn't go.
She's going to mess everything up. Here's what I need help with: Should I
tell the doctors? I'm already at the hospital so it'd be a good time to, but I
also don't want meds for it since they've already been adjusting my meds.
But it's 11:30 at night and I can't sleep because she keeps talking. What
should I do? She's also threatening me if I tell. What do I do?
i agree telling the doctor would be a good idea. also some people find if they tell the voices to go away firmly then they get better, and it was suggested to me that you can mentally turn the volume down on them. how are you feeling about being discharged?
I told the staff and they will tell the doctor, but he won't be here until
Monday, the day I'm being discharged. I'm just terrified that she will
take over. She's insane.
I'm not feeling very good about being discharged, especially now. Before
she started talking, I felt better about it. Now I'm scared.
I'm sorry the staff aren't really doing anything.
Please tell them if things get any worse; they really need to do something.
Hopefully they'll do something on monday.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
It's normal to start experiencing past symptoms not long before discharge after a period of time in hospital. It's the unconscious mind that is holding anxiety about leaving, trying to sabotage the good work that you have done and the progress you've made. By bringing that awareness into the conscious, you will be able to have more control over that sabotaging bit and not let it take over. Identify your anxieties about leaving and talk to the nurses. Don't listen to the voices; they're just the part of you that's destructive.
It's normal to start experiencing past symptoms not long before discharge after a period of time in hospital. It's the unconscious mind that is holding anxiety about leaving, trying to sabotage the good work that you have done and the progress you've made. By bringing that awareness into the conscious, you will be able to have more control over that sabotaging bit and not let it take over. Identify your anxieties about leaving and talk to the nurses. Don't listen to the voices; they're just the part of you that's destructive.
Alright, that helps a lot. Anya has shown up a few times before and has even taken over when I was a child, but I thought she was gone for good. It helps to hear that it is normal because I'm afraid she will take over again and make me go insane.
It's really frightening to feel that something can take over you, but for most people they are able to retain their autonomy and make choices for themselves, which is good.
I'm not so much saying that hearing voices is normal (though it is more common than people think) - I am more saying that there can be underlying psychological reasons that act as a defense for when we are feeling overwhelmed. Being discharged after a period of time in hospital is frightening - we wonder, will we cope? Will this happen to us again? And that can cause unconscious parts of our minds to rear up in the form of thoughts, voices or actions in order to try and sabotage the hard work we've done in order to try and avoid perceived failure at recovery and stay in the 'ill' zone - because it's safer. Awareness of these phenomena can help you to stay in control.
I hope that makes some sort of sense. My advice is to try and reduce anxiety around discharge and 'coping in the community' by talking to nurses about all your possible concerns (and keep telling them about the voices, too) to try and formulate a detailed contingency plan that may help reduce your anxiety.
It's really frightening to feel that something can take over you, but for most people they are able to retain their autonomy and make choices for themselves, which is good.
I'm not so much saying that hearing voices is normal (though it is more common than people think) - I am more saying that there can be underlying psychological reasons that act as a defense for when we are feeling overwhelmed. Being discharged after a period of time in hospital is frightening - we wonder, will we cope? Will this happen to us again? And that can cause unconscious parts of our minds to rear up in the form of thoughts, voices or actions in order to try and sabotage the hard work we've done in order to try and avoid perceived failure at recovery and stay in the 'ill' zone - because it's safer. Awareness of these phenomena can help you to stay in control.
I hope that makes some sort of sense. My advice is to try and reduce anxiety around discharge and 'coping in the community' by talking to nurses about all your possible concerns (and keep telling them about the voices, too) to try and formulate a detailed contingency plan that may help reduce your anxiety.
I didn't mean normal as in hearing voices is normal, I meant that it's normal
for things like this to happen just before discharge like you said. I understand
what you mean and it makes a lot of sense. You seem to be very wise and I
thank you for your replies and advice.
