Fell back in the dark

[~Porcelain~]

So I had been clean from my eating disorder for maybe a month and a half, and I have been getting the same feelings when everrrrrrrrr I eat again.
I was fourteen, bulimic... Turned to anorexic tendencies, then was so hungry that I'd binge, then purge.

I moved not long ago, back to my hometown, and it's taking some getting use to, but I'm around family and people a lot more, I can't purge, because the new place is small and I'd be heard, big timeeee. Unless I was at a public restroom or something. Idk. But trying to self recover, because no one knows. So I guess I just end some tips? Or something. I donno?..

I just feel like I'm gaining and gaining since I moved, an it's affecting me big time.

Love you all. Thanks for reading if u did

[Uglyducklin]

I'm so sorry porcelain it is so hard. I'm low on words but thinking of you x

[~Porcelain~]

Thanks love <3

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

Hiya honey,

I'm so proud to hear you're fighting your eating disorder, the fact you've managed a month ED-Free shows you really do have the strength to beat this!

You say you're feeling the same ED wise since you moved?, Do you think its stress related? Lack of control? Routine?

Self-Recovery is pretty difficult. Have you thought about reaching out?, Your doctor, Family, Friends?

x x x