I'm not totally sure my thread is such an achievement as other but I thought I'd post this anyway as it's a success for me anyway.
Since losing my best friend to suicide it's been tough and it still doesn't feel real. But the Olanzopine I've been on for at least a month has helped majorly with the voices.
And each admission is getting further and further apart. This year I've only be IP twice, which may sound a lot but compared to last two years overall I spent more time in hospital than in my flat. I also used to have to go to A&E 3/4 times a week which is a massive improvment as now it's less than once a month and usually for cutting. My impulsivity has gone down a hell of a lot, I think before I act, and I think thats to do with the meds.
So things are looking much brighter definitely. I thought at one point I would never get out of this illness, but it is possible and I want you to all remember that as hard as it may be.
Thanks for reading and any hugs
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
That's wonderful Amy, any step forward is positive however small
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
That's nice to read - those are real achievements and it sounds like you've made a lot of progress.
Thanks too for the reminder that things can improve - it's encouraging to know.
Amy I'm so so proud of you. This is really wonderful to read, you are doing brilliantly and it most definitely is an achievement. I hope that things continue to get better for you, I'm sure they will! I'm glad the medication is helping as well <3
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
I'm so proud of you Amy, especially in such a difficult time as you've had this year. This all shows so much strength, anything is possible for you xxx
Thanks you lovelys, your kind words mean so so much to me.
I thought I'd never make any strides forward when I was so low and chaotic especially with a diagnoses of BPD but things can and will get better for all of us. I am more than just my illness and you guys can make these steps forward too. It doesn't happen over night and I do slip up every so often but I pick myself up and move on rather than getting angry and beat myself up over it.
There is hope.
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
I just wanted to tell you again how freaking proud I am of you <3
And it is really good to be reminded that there is hope for things to change, thank you x
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Things will change for you too lovely, it does take time but you will reach that point I promise, you have so much strength you can get through the shitty times <3
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
That's a great way to put it Amy. Thanks. I try to remember that too at my worst times
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
“The only way that we can live is if we grow. The only way we can grow is if we change. The only way we can change is if we learn. The only way we can learn is if we are exposed. And the only way that we are exposed is if we throw ourselves into the open.”
Just hoping they'll keep me on the same meds at my next review, as things have improved massively in terms of impulsivity and voices and sleep since being on them.
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
I am so, so proud of you! We haven't talked much but I "stalk" you a lot and am a fan. You are such a sweet, caring and supportive person and find kind words for everyone so much of the time. I am glad to see you are doing better, you really deserve it as you worked hard for it and suffered for such a long time.
