Severely Triggering (ED) - I'm fine, I'm fine,...

[chipstick3000]

my bmi and behaviours would suggest severe anorexia

but my bloods are fine
ECG fine
still menstruate

but i cant really be fine can i? If i was fine xmas wouldn't be scaring the hell out of me. I can't help but think i'll change when my body tells me its had enough.

[BabySteps]

xmas scares me too :'(

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

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Originally Posted by chipstick3000

but i cant really be fine can i? If i was fine xmas wouldn't be scaring the hell out of me. I can't help but think i'll change when my body tells me its had enough.

Exactly. You aren't fine & I think deep down you know that. You wouldn't be doing such damaging behaviors if you were fine, would you?
You say you've had bloods etc, do have any emotional support too? I'd suggested talking to them about how you're feeling a good first step.

To the second part of your quote, I have to say, I have been there. Right where you are now. & I turned around & said the same thing & when my body broke down & was begging for me to stop, I still didn't, simply because I believed that one manipulative lie my eating disorder told me all those years ago; 'You can stop once you're ill enough.' Thing is, you will never be ill enough.

Please talk to someone sweetie.

x x x