hang in there and keep posting
Hey
It must have been a shock to read what your dr has written in the letter, the way you are feeling must be scary but im sure its a reflection of how you are feeling or have been feeling.
I hope your appointment with your dr went ok, i understand you being scared, and wanting to prove youve improved. Its not worth hiding the way you feel from the dr if you are struggling, i hope you managed to be honest. I hear you about how upsetting it can be seing your dr, i have been through a similar situation with my dr. I hope it didnt become personal, between your dr and its understandable that your going to be very emotional and posibly break down.
It must be scary for you to then go and see a social worker but im sure if you can be honest and open you can recieve the help and support you need right now. Breaking down at the docs wouldnt naturally lead you to be given a white jacket. Its natural that your going to be very emotional, i certainly was myself, its important that you can be open to your feelings.
I know how scary the thought of this support from a social worker or psych, can be . But again if you are in a position in your life where you need the support please try and understand its for your best interests. I have seen a psychiatrist, and have a community mental health nurse, and im trying to see a pyschologist. I feel that without this support i wouldnt be where i am, i have had some issues myself with them, but it can only help you.
I hope things went well,
Its great youve got a girlfriend who you care very much about, and works been going well, and good for you being 3 months SI free. But if its Depression your going through it can be strange it doesnt matter who you are or what you have in your life, it can still affect you and bring your world crashing down. I hope if your sessions goes south that you can find support for yourself with friends or family, if you have to take time off work. It will be difficult but if you can get support for yourself that can help you through the bad times. Try not to focus on the negative stuff if you can.
Its not a pointless rambling, its your space to express yourself and keep doing it,
please keep posting and we will be here for you
take care
Dave
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