Beyond repair. - Page 31

chinahorse · 12-07-2019, 10:27 AM

The appointment went ok. The gp wad very nice. He gave me some zopiclone and said he would sign me off if I wanted. We decided not in the end and to see how I go.

I did have a bad night last night with the man and messages. Some friends were worried not that I understand why really. I've taken today off work as I just couldn't cope with it. I feel like a failure.

Today I need to ring the new estate agent to sort out some things. Need to revise for my driving theory and crochet. Think that's all I'm going to manage today.

one_step_closer · 13-07-2019, 02:15 PM

I'm glad the GP was kind. You're not a failure at all. Did it help to have yesterday off work? How are you today?

chinahorse · 13-07-2019, 03:14 PM

It did help a lot to have a down day.

I was ok I had a good driving lesson earlier. I've started packing thpugh and feel very overwhelmed. I have so much stuff. And no time. And loads of other stuff to do.

one_step_closer · 13-07-2019, 04:49 PM

Is there no one at all who can help with some of the things? Or are there things that you can maybe leave for a little while and just get on with the things that are important right now? Moving is so stressful. I hope you can have some time to try and relax too.

chinahorse · 13-07-2019, 06:12 PM

Not really anything anyone can help with. I need to revise for my driving theory, in ish crocheting a blanket, pack a whole flat, go to an appointment and work 2 days between now and thursay.

nonperson · 13-07-2019, 06:38 PM

People could help with packing.

chinahorse · 13-07-2019, 07:24 PM

True. But I can't ask people that.

chinahorse · 14-07-2019, 10:19 AM

I asked and no one replied.

I feel exhausted and broken and stupidly overwhelmed by everything. The man is saying just to hang myself. It's the only way out.

one_step_closer · 14-07-2019, 10:57 AM

I'm sorry no one has offered to help. Well done for asking. Is there someone you could ask directly? It's not abnormal for you to be feeling overwhelmed with all this, it's so stressful. I don't think you should hang yourself, 100% definitely not. I know things are really hard right now and that might seem tempting but I believe you can work through this.

chinahorse · 14-07-2019, 09:23 PM

There's messages on the wardrobe in blood. Scrubbed them off. They say I'm doing it wrong. The script is written.

one_step_closer · 15-07-2019, 04:29 PM

That sounds scary. How are you feeling now?

chinahorse · 15-07-2019, 08:11 PM

It's been an ok day.

I have my driving theory tomorrow. I am exhausted and haven't studied for it.

Keep having stupidly vivid messages in the little sleep I do get.

one_step_closer · 16-07-2019, 10:16 AM

Good luck with today. I hope you get on well. Did you manage to get any sort of restful sleep?

Eska · 16-07-2019, 10:17 AM

I hope it goes well today Lillie

chinahorse · 16-07-2019, 11:35 AM

Lord knows how but I passed my theory.

Sleep sort of happened.

I'm knackered now. Need to pack more.

tamobhuuta · 16-07-2019, 11:41 AM

Well done! Is there time for a nap?

nonperson · 16-07-2019, 01:20 PM

Awesome, well done you! =)

chinahorse · 16-07-2019, 02:04 PM

I had a nap and packed some more of my kitchen. Stuff is pretty much done now. Just the deceptive last bits which will take forever.

one_step_closer · 17-07-2019, 03:09 PM

Huge well done with passing the theory!

Also well done with everything you're getting done.

How are you today?

chinahorse · 17-07-2019, 08:08 PM

Thank you.

Last day at work today. I feel incredibly overwhelmed with everything.