Hey my wife-to-be, beautiful baby girly, angel from above, princess <3
I LOVE YOU.
I'm SO proud of you for EVERYTHING, you're getting through this really well, and I can't tell you how proud I am.
I know it's so difficult, beyond difficult, no words to describe it, but I hope your OT is able to be with you when you identify them, or at least some support from the police or something whilst you identify them, and plans in place for afterwards.
Everyone has such good ideas/suggestions, I can only echo them.
Remember that I love you.
Keep fighting angelface.
<3
(I'll be there soon, holding your hand, cuddling you, holding you...
Just keep fighting. I promise everything will be okay.)
So its this week the police said they would contact me to Identify the photos... its Friday tomorrow & they still haven't... It's really driving me up the wall...
Is it reasonable for me to ring them & ask about it tomorrow?, I don't want to seem like I'm nagging them/being a pain. & I'm not even sure what to say... I just can't cope with this wait... I understand they are busy which is why I'm nervous about ringing...
I would phone today, as then there's a chance they could set it up for tomorrow. It's not unreasonable at all, especially if they said it would be this week. Perhaps at the same time you could ask about what kind of support is available?
I'm trying to get my head around it, but in short,, its ongoing & they have no photographs, yet. They are trying to track down a possible witness. They said they'd update me again next week.
I just want it to be simpler. I know it can't be, but I feel myself suffocating & having unsafe thoughts. I spoke to my Mum about it & she said I feel the same overwhelming distress & urges tomorrow she'll phone the crisis team, on my behalf.
I'm sorry things are being dragged out for longer sweet.
When I'm feeling really bad and I'm worrying about something that's upcoming, I find it helps to break things down into smaller steps so it doesn't feel so overwhelming. It helps me to stay grounded too. Can you break the weekend down into say 3 hour blocks, and focus on getting through each block? Maybe promise yourself something nice at the end of each block; like an episode of your favourite show, for example. It might be easier to look ahead just 3 hours rather than an undefined point next week, and it will help you to stay in the moment too and not let your mind get away from you.
It sounds like your Mum is supporting you and hopefully crisis team will be able to help, if they do end up being contacted. You can always PM or text me if you need, too <3
