I'm really struggling to deal with my mental health at the moment. I have bipolar and i usually mostly suffer with depression. I have small episodes of mania but they seem to be controlled by well with my meds as I've only ever had one severe manic episode.
Anyway, I feel strange.
I feel so painfully depressed yet so aggitated. I feel like I want to sleep forever but also like I need to keep moving constantly. I don't have the motivation to do anything but also have the need to do things. I feel conflicted. I feel upset and happy all at the same time and it's confusing.
I really want to hurt myself but I also don't want to.
The usual signs of my depression are here, fatigue, anxiety, nightmares, irritability etc but I'm also expecting hyperactivity, paranoia and spending wrecklesy.
What the hell?
I want to self medicate to ease how strange I feel.
Sounds like a mixed episode. I get that sometimes. If it's uncomfortable and you're tempted to self medicate ( which I would advise against) could you ring the MH team or if you're not under them your gp?
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
I am sorry you are experiencing this.
Can you keep a journal of the thoughts, feelings you are experiencing?
Do you take your meds at the same time of day?
In the course of a day/ week I find I forget incidences of depression, hypomania, anger, sadness....also noting how long you sleep etc.
This is all helpful when contacting your team.
I hope you find the support you need.
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
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it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
Thank you for the replies
Unfortunately I haven't Been very good and I ended up taking things abit far. I've been taking drugs to cheer me up but now it's been stopped and I'm depressed anyway the come down isn't good and I'm struggling.
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014