feeling like a failure at trying to recover
i went to my appointment with my nutritionist today, and it was the first time i had gone in a little more than two months. Some stuff happened and i wasnt willing to go talk to her, or anyone on my treatment team for that matter. but anyways...
I always feel like such a failure. That my doctor/therapist/dietician all think that i don't want to get better. I wish, more than anything, that my bulmia could just be gone and i could just let go of it. I wish i KNEW what needed to be done, and that I knew what would help me stop doing this, but i honestly have no clue. I feel so terrible when they ask me things like " what can i do to help you?" or "what do you think is something that would work to help you stop?" or basically any questions along those lines...its like i should know, but i dont, and it makes me feel like a failure, and terrible patient. What are the answers they are looking for that i obviously dont have...ughh
can anyone relate?
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