Am I overreacting?

[*****]

After my last IP treatment things seemed to be going really good but now it's starting to turn around for no reason at all...
All of the things I thought that were caused because of my eating disorder (malnutrition) seem to be coming back ...(severe mood swings, apathy, concentration problems, ...) so now I'm thinking that they are not related and that it's just the way I am...

I'm beginning to think I could have some kind of personality disorder, but I'm to scared to tell anyone. I'm seeing my therapist tonight and I really want to ask if this could be a possibility but I'm scared he'll think I'm overreacting or being stupid...

What should I do?

[Steel Maiden]

Talk to your therapist, don't mention the words "personality disorder", just tell her that you're really worried about yourself and that it is making you feel even worse.


Ack. What I just said doesn't make sense.

[*****]

No it does, and it's what I did... but he doesn't want to give me a diagnoses... I understand his point of view but I still want to know and he won't tell me which drives me crazy!

[Steel Maiden]

My doctor is doing the same to me, athough my old doctors gave me diagnoses. I can understand what you're going through. You could get an independent second opinion. Perhaps go to your GP and complain?

[lydia.]

Heya,
I don't think you're being stupid or over reacting at all. It's really important that you have a doctor that you can get along with, so that you can progress. If things aren't working out too well, maybe it's time to start afresh with someone who won't frustrate you so much.
Could you just be going through a tough phase at the moment? Moods can change from time to time. It's normal to have highs & lows every now and then. It's human to struggle with things. It doesn't necessarily mean there is something wrong with you personality wise.
Although on the other hand, if you have been struggling with these issues for awhile, it's important that you bring them forward, and deal with them in the best way possible.
Good luck tonight, let us know how it goes yeh?
xx

[*****]

He is my GP too :) (it's complicated) but yeah I could go somewhere else but he's actually one of the first to really get through to me so I would feel bad about that... but maybe I'll tell him next time that I'm thinking of getting another opinio... I don't know...

[Steel Maiden]

He is your GP as well? Wow. I think that perhaps you need to raise the question of personality testing for a personality disorder.

[*****]

I did ... but he thinks of that as the same thing as a diagnoses...

[Steel Maiden]

Can you pay for a private assessment? I did that for my Asperger's evaluation.

[*****]

The care system is different in Belgium ... but a private assesment would be no problem. It's just that I don't want to go behind his back...

[Steel Maiden]

Well perhaps you have to on this one. Because he's obviously not looking after you properly.

[*****]

Thanks for the replies, I think I'll tell him next week that I want to know eventhough he disagrees and if we can arrange that I get it but still be able to get therapy with him

[Steel Maiden]

Excellent idea. Good luck.

[*****]

I'm had a breakdown todya and talked a lot with my mum and now were going to an last minute appointement tonight... see what'll happen I guess...

[Steel Maiden]

Good luck. Tell me how it goes.

[lydia.]

I hope you're alright. Please let us know yeh?
x

[*****]

It was a very good session! I'm still not getting diagnosed but I got a good explenation this time. It still bothers me a bit but I know it's best to just keep going from here.

Thanks for the support!

[Steel Maiden]

You're welcom.e