Im really struggling guys, all I think about is SH an I did it last night an felt bettet but all I want to do is more an more (*trig*) I SH my wrist an its so messed up I cant do it there anymore, what I really want to do is my arm (crazy person alert!) I physically shake whenever I think about it for fear of doing it. I dont have anyone to talk to about it as I dont want to harm my only mate that knows as that person is havng troble themself. Ive seen a counciler a few times through my collage an I want her advise about things but Its easter an I cant see her till next tusday :(
Hiya! I am sorry that you are struggling right, did your councilor give you any good advise on how to cope with the way you are feeling? Are you able to talk to us what triggers those feelings?
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Hello. I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so at the moment it must be hard. I can understand your hesitation and shakiness about SHing in a new place and you know what it probably is a good sign, one that you do not want to hurt your body further at least in new ways. I'm sorry that the friend you have is struggling at the moment too, that must be hard not feeling you can take to them about your problems and what is going on. Do you think you could talk to your parents about it? They may be able to help to an extent. Also I think seeing the counselor is a good idea it is unfortunate you can't see him/her for a week. Until then could you try to write out your emotions? Also if things get bad there are crisis lines if you need to talk to somebody: and although I may not be much help I am here as well. I'm sorry things aren't going so well at the moment but they will get better. Continue to be strong and take care, if you need anything do not hesitate to ask.
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when you see your counselor again, talking about this might be a good thing to do.
try to remember that smoking and drinking aren't particularly healthy ways to deal with things either, eventually you'll probably want to work yourself away from relying on those too
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Yea I look forward to seeing her, but I already know if I tell her anything then she may want to tell the appropriate people (my parents, my collage, hospital/doctor)she did say she trusted me an thought I was responsible enough to look after myself, but I've obviously proved her wrong.
This is going to sound (can't think how to explain it) weird, but I don't relay on smoking and drinking as a coping method, in fact I don't do either very often, I only really drink when I'm out with mates and I only fancy a smoke because I've had a drink. Kinda a vicious circle
Although last night I probably did more of both than I should of
I am glad you are doing better today. Do you think it would be so bad if your parents or others knew they things you'd like to tell her? At least they'd know, and secrets have a way of working themselves out in the end.
Last night sounds difficult. Do you think it will happen again or was it a once off?
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I don't know, I keep thinking of telling my parent, but I think Im going to wait until Ive seen my councelor, see what she thinks.
My only fear is that I'll up-set them. What if they ask why Im like this? Why I do this to myself? I don't know myself, its not like something really bad happened to me when I was young or anything, there were some things but probably no more than what anyone else puts up with!
No, I can probably gurantee it will happen again -_-
i had similar fears... i didn't want to let my parents down, and felt like nothing had happened to me that gave me the right to be struggling... but struggle is struggle, regardless of what causes it. everyone is different, and anxiety, depression and such don't have to be caused by anything. they just happen sometimes, and it isn't your fault...
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The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
This is my problem, I want to tell them so (hopefully) they'll give me support, my dad had some severe depression when I was very young and again when I was 14-15, so they will be understanding, hopefully. I feel like I've let them down, I'm bi-sexual/gay (A phase, lol), I haven't told them but they have said to me an my other siblings if any of us are then they wouldn't mind, but on the other hand, they really want grand kids and have told me that before. So basically I would be letting them down if I ever told them, same goes for bloody everything else!
Okay, what your saying makes sense, but how can someone see it as not their fault? If you SI then it's usually because you want to, okay sometimes you do it through a "red haze" but it's still you "at the wheel!"
Hey are you on medication? That might help your anxiety a little. And as for the gay thing. You shouldn't have to worry about what anyone else thinks about it apart from you. It's your life and it's the way you are - you can't help it.
No Im not, I'll try an speak to my councelor about that. An you may be right but Im always going to care about what they think of me, they are my parents after all.
