"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity"

[manic_felinemistress]

Edgar Allen Poe....
I finally get that quote...
I've been getting so many mood swings. On an average... 3-5 a day? Major ones, that means happy happy joy joy to suicidal. This started a month ago. Yesterday I had twelve. That means I had one every hour I was awake. My meds are NOT working anymore apperantly... Scariest part is when I do have those few moments when I am "mellow" I start worring I'll switch spectrums dramatically again. So everytime I am in a more level mood I'm struct by paranoia that It'll happen again. And when I get paranoid worse things happen. Like, seeing and hearing things. One of the hardest things is, though... when my mood swings are so close together, I can't even feel them coming on. You know how if you're real happy then you just get this dreadful feeling and then it starts coming over you? It usually takes like.. five minutes for me to totally sink. Now it's like a fast ball. Same with the manic. Worse is when you get "manic-depressive". At least that's what I call it. When you're like.... so upset that you start laughing at horrible things and start making jokes at your own death, but are serious about it. Anyone relate?

[Ranger Fairy]

I can definetaly relate, 1 minutes your on top of world and 2 minutes later your planning your own death. In the past I've kept reapeatly switching for days. I was told the short ones that change quickly and violently are to with my 'BPD'. Whatever the cause though there very very upsetting and distressing.

What about in the in between moments having a bath or doing a actititvy that happens you personally relax, even if it doesn't help to prevent the mood swings and lessen them, it might help you stop thinking and worrying about the next one even if only a little bit just to give a small break.

I would defentialy suggest talking to your doctor about your meds if you feel thier not working. Sorry I can't help more but your not the only who has had these sort of experiances. Hang in there and I hope things get better very soon. *hugs*

Frankiex

[that faery kid]

O_O thats me
i do that all the time....that insane: yay im going to be really depressed and want to die in ten minutes *laughs hysterically* mood.
i seriously thought i was just crazy.
my dr said i was bipolar til i explained how fast the moods switch...then she just looked confused...
has anyone found anything to reduce these? i think they are like manic panic attacks...for me atleast.

stay safe everyone!