-- could you have been much more patronising? i know it's your job. and SERIOUSLY. I DIDN'T WANNA TAKE DAMN TEST.
-- i wish you'd all stop tip-toeing around it. i know i was soooo at fault here. i wish someone would scream and shout at me, slap me, something just so i don't have to do it.
-- urghh fuck. i don't know. it doesn't change what you did. i know i was to blame too, but i don't think i wanna do that just cause of what other people'd think.
-- i actually can't thank you enough, i love you so much. but please, never let me go back. i felt so horrible being there.
-- you stupid bitch. what were you thinking? seriously. you're possibly the biggest idiot ever. i wish someone would just punch you and get it over with. you were contemplating doing something really silly earlier, that'd be bad. no one wouldda believed you fell and 'hit your head'. ERGH. what is the matter with you?!
You idot! I told you not to fuck about with this shit. Urgh, I knew when you turned up you were pilled off your nut. You know the what not to do when you've taken them. How many double drops? V says 7... You're so fucking STUPID! If you die cause of this...ARGH! What the hell?!?!?!!
♪♫ I'm Learning To Be Brave In My Beautiful Mistakes ♫♪
so nats...its been 124 days, 11 hours, and 42 minutes since February 17. the day i made you so angry you decided to never speak to me again
I miss you so much, you honestly have no idea. You were the only person who completely understood me. you were a true friend, Ive cried a lot since you left.
i miss you and love you dearly nats. Ill always love you
Hold on baby, because if you don't I can't.
I'm sat here crying, hurting, scared. What would I do without you?
Because right now, I've turned the music up so loud I can feel it, and it's drowning out the sound of my pathetic tears.
I've lost so much already, don't let me lose you as well.
I can't stop thinking about what you said to me " I have enough shit in my life I shouldn't have to deal with this". I never asked you to deal with anything, you said I could talk to you about anything whenever I needed to. You told me you cared and that you thought of me as your little sister. You also told me that you never lie, but you do. It was all a lie. I should have known better than to let my guard down and trust someone, well that will never happen again. I really care about you and for some reason I miss you, even though you are probably happy that I'm not in your life anymore.
~stay the fuck out of my room, I'm not 12 and you have no right going through my things. you weren't there 7 years of my life and I delt just fine. stop trying to play the "mother" role now, when it's already too late. I don't need you.
~I don't NEED you anymore and I don't even want you. you haven't called in two days not even on our anniversary, which tells me that I'm only important when I make the effort. I should even have to make an effort to show you I deserve to be in your life. you should do that yourself. and I don't want you anymore b/c obviously I'm not that important to you.
~how am I supposed to tell her I don't want to be with her anymore? when she doesn't care? I know I need to do that but I can't seem to find the words
~I need you, but at the same time I'm so scared to bother you with myshit...and I shouldn't be afraid after all that you've done for me...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I want to die. But I have to be 'happy ally', they can't know what's really going on. Must keep it a secret. They're so proud I'm doing so 'well'. Hah, if only they'd seen my yesterday with my psych.
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
I am currently:
Is it natural to hide in the dark? Is it natural to want to disappear?
rhap·so·dy - an ecstatic expression of feeling or enthusiasm. ♫
"Sacrifice is the most you can love someone." ♥
“Love was at best an excuse for stupidity, at worst a destructive, dangerous emotion that drove men to acts of annihilation which defied logic. It was a twisted, insidious sentiment used to justify everything from spoiling a child to destroying entire civilizations.”
It's sick and withered. You ask me why im doing this and your voice shakes. I tell you amputation is the key, its the only way to make us whole again.
Eckhart saw Hell too. He said: The only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won't let go of life, your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away. But they're not punishing you, he said. They're freeing your soul. So, if you're frightened of dying and... and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth.
