My poor mom's latest (God bless her soul, I feel so bad for her knowing I've cut):
"I don't know why you worry so much about using separate towels if then you just go and slice and dice yourself."
"It's not a dream anymore. It's worth fighting for."
"Well, if it's not real you can't hold it in your hands
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it.
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh, even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah" - Paramore
"you think you have problems, you should have seen my ex's personality disorder."
This was after i told her about the PTSD, depression, anxiety, cutting, burning, scratching and the fact that i put my self in therapy. It hurt because, i stuggle with talking about how i feel and she just dissmissed me and tried to up me on problems. all i did was tell her i was little messed up.
also a friends family member was walking by my friends bedroom where we were hangning out and my friends dog and taken a brownie so i put my finger in its mouth to get it out. and he came in joking
"i don't care what you stick down your throat as long as its in private."
so i said.
"i was stopping the dog from eating the brownie, i don't have that problem."
and another friend said sarcasticly "you don't?"
i was angry because i trusted my friends when i told them i was in therapy and this summer i actually started purging which i haven't told anyone.
"Bad" - as my dad took my hand and smacked it in a condescending way like I was a child.
My teacher did that to me ¬¬;
Had the genral 'if you do it i will'
your attention seeking
theres nothing really wrong with you
the docter ' its jsut your hormones youll be fine'
nurses saying your wasting time or giving dirty looks
youll grow out of it
why dont you just kill your self insted? thigns liek tat
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
"What the hell is going on with your wrist?"
Yeah, thanks for calling me out in public around a ton of people. I appreciate all the weird looks I got from it, especially the way you rolled your eyes when I said I got scratched in the woods. I love being belittled like that.
"I'm not here to preach... but..."- lol I know they meant well, but it still made me laugh.
As did the bit that followed after I was bandaged up- the Nurse said that at least it would make it harder for me to harm. (Bandaged my whole arm.)
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
I hate it when people have said to me ' And you think you have problems?!'
I cant remeber if i have said this one but when i used to go to counselling at college i would get ' You going to your slit your wrists meeting lauren?' From 'friends' then when a friend saw my wrist.. well my whole sleeve came up a lad asked what it was i was about to say my cat and a friend went ' oh she cuts herself she had to go to counselling for it last year' . That same girl later said ' wasn't it funny when tom saw laurens wrist' Oh and they tried to guess what i used saying ' oh no i think she uses this' another lad asked what they were on about and the girl said ' were seeing if we can guess what lauren uses to cut herself with.'
From my therapist : "I've seen people here with actual problems, and they're strong enough NOT to cut. Stop attention seeking and grow up."
Ugh.
Also, my ex boyfriend: "If you're going to keep cutting, then I'll cut you - then you'll see how dumb you're being."
My so-called best friend: "Why don't you just kill yourself if you're so depressed?"
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Wow, I'm sorry you had to hear that stuff. Those are some of the worst ones I've heard in a while.
"It's not a dream anymore. It's worth fighting for."
"Well, if it's not real you can't hold it in your hands
You can't feel it with your heart
And I won't believe it.
But if it's true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh, even in the dark
And that's where I want to be, yeah" - Paramore
From my therapist : "I've seen people here with actual problems, and they're strong enough NOT to cut. Stop attention seeking and grow up."
What a s*it therapist you got. I hope for your sake that you don't have her anymore but that you have someone else. You did not need or deserve to hear that. I'm sorry honey xx
From my ex-boyfriend: ''I have sex with you for my kicks like you cut yourself for yours''
The basta*d.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
Doctor - 'I don't stitch self harm.'
'You silly girl, don't do this again.'
'Is there any point giving you antibiotics or will you just take them all at once?'
What a s*it therapist you got. I hope for your sake that you don't have her anymore but that you have someone else. You did not need or deserve to hear that. I'm sorry honey xx
From my ex-boyfriend: ''I have sex with you for my kicks like you cut yourself for yours''
The basta*d.
Yeah, I basically paid £120 an hour for her to bitch at me. I stopped seeing her when I was 11. :(
Yeah, I basically paid £120 an hour for her to bitch at me. I stopped seeing her when I was 11. :(
What a rip off! My dad has a doctorate in psychotherapy and even he only charges £60-£80 an hour, depending on circumstances.
I trained as a counsellor and the going rate was £25 ish! Most of the tutors did a ''sliding scale'' fee. They looked at what you earned or if you were on benefits and worked out a fair fee which was able to be paid by you in your circumstances.
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
I've had this, after him leaning over me, with his tie coming into contact with my wound several times he announces he "won't stitch cutters, they just cut them out" That was after he admitted to my needing sutures.
Sorry you've experienced this too, I doubt this will be the first or last time anyone who self harms will come into contact with this attitude sadly.
"Would you like for me to send you off to the looney bin?"---My Mom
"I really hate people that do those kinds of emo things."---An asshole in my gym class after he saw my scars by accident.
"You're just doing it to piss everyone off."---My former counselor (Bitch.)
"Well, what the **** do you expect me to do about it?"---More words of wisdom from my Mom (Gee, thanks for the support!)
"What a stupid thing to do, get over yourself."---Another asshole.
"what do you want me to say? Poor baby, here, have whatever you want for the rest of your life? Get over yourself and think about other people for a change."
"Stop being so selfish."
"You're cutting God when you do that, you know."
"Did you think we'd be happy to see this?"
"I knew letting you listen to rock music was bad."
"I'm going to see where I can send you away."
"All you do is sit on te computer all day, you don't know what it's like to try."
"You're a spoiled brat who can't appreciate what's been given to you, obviously."
"You had everything fed to you through a silver spoon. What right have YOU got to be sad about anything at all?"
"You're not going to get my attention like that."
"IS IT REALLY SUCH A TRADGEDY?!"
"Do you want me to treat you like you're five because that's how you're acting."
"What do you mean you're angry? Honey, let me tell you, you don't even know the WORD!"
"Think about the kids starving around the world that take care of 7 other kids without parents anywhere. They have the real problems and you're just being a baby."
... -sigh- I hate guilt trips. I definitely know I have it easy compared to countless others. I don't need my failures and spoiled-brattiness shoved down my throat even more often than my brain makes it happen.
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Reason: Edits, of course
Bare with typos and such, I'm doing this all with an iPod. ^^
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
la la la la la la la la la
to the day in my new era
''Why would you have a REAL reason to cut?'' (not knowing I had been abused but just using the fact I lived in the suburbs had a mum and dad who weren't divorced and a dad who had a full time job. Oh and we lived in our own house)
God, that makes it ok then?
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
