Thank you fire fly I'm losing it. I need to do it though the only way out is through. This fat body does not feel like mine it is suffocating me. I hurt I'm crying myself to sleep , making lose plans to escape. I'm such a selfish fat monster.
I have given myself one more day before caving in I can't be like this any more. Invasion of the body snatchers. The fat it's my fault I'm sorry. I just want to fall head first into my eating disorder . I can't keep up the compromise. I want to ask for help but I don't deserve it.
