“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I'm a Christian lesbian, recovering self-injurer who can't admit to the world who she is. I'm afraid of being hated. I'm already hated.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside.
"Gomenasai for everything. Gomenasai, I know I let you down. Gomenasai til the end, I never needed a friend like I do now. " - Tatu
I'm terrified that you're going to hate me, this one thing, but we have 3 months til we see each other
and I'm terrified that you're just going to laugh and find someone better then me...
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I found out yesterday that my adoptive mum's mum killed herself, not died from emphysema. I also found out that my birth mother was on cocaine when she was pregnant with me. I feel like total shit and worthless, but I don't want anyone to know. I'm seriously considering suicide for the first time in a while. I want to quit therapy and stop taking my meds. I just wish no one would be hurt by my death.
I've given up on my eating
because I have to be pretty for you
even though you say I'm perfect I can't believe it
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I love my best friend but I know I shouldn't...
I always trick myself into believing I've never self-harmed and I'm completely normal. I die a little when I look at my arms.
I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it.
today i was walking through the bus station...and realised that i was conpleatly alone in the world and knowone atually cares, they just want to to do their essays, or stand next to them sso they look pretty next to the ugly one...ie me
We are so accustomed to disguise ourselves to others that in the end we become disguised to ourselves.
I broke up with the most amazing guy ever, cause I dont deserve him, and it killed me everytime i saw him. now I just cant cope! but i know getting back together will make me realise how much better than me he can do. I wish he could see that! :(
Learn from the past, Hope for tomorrow, Live for today
TimeToDance is my napping buddy! :) Banarama! is my big sister :) My wee loon Oli is my personal help desk! :) Mercipourlevenin is a legend!!! :)
Love_Lies_Bleeding:Tinkerdebs:pastexpiration: *fairy*dust* all make me smile :)
Thanks for all you have done guys, you mean so much to me! :)
Just because I smile, it doesn't mean I'm okay. I just want to scream at them and tell them that the smiles are hiding the tears and the anger on the inside that I'm scared to let out. It's scary that I'm scared to feel.
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
I'm losing my mind..slowly
and I'm becoming very good at hiding it all
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
oookk... *takes deep breath*
i dont tell my friends anything cuz i think theyll judge me
my bestfriends uncle trys to touch me innapropriatly
my bffs dad abuses her and ive been swarn to secrecy
i still have weird feeling toward my ex boyfriend even though im friends with his gf and me and him are just friends
i know it sound stupid but ive loved my boyfriend since i met him we didnt talk till last year but i still felt a weird pull towards him and now were happily yet secretly together because my father hate him and i almost hate my dad because ifeel hes trying to control me sometimes
i have a problem with lying i knows its prob illegal but i go online pretending to be a 19 year old and i talk to older people i know its really really stupid but i get along with older people and they dont give me the time of day because im so young
my gaurdian has cancer and i cant tell anyone
i wish i had my mom
i wish i didnt have such a drama problem...
my step dad killed my brother and only got 2 years of community service...
my boyfriends friend got me to do pot
me my family and ex are the reason i started cutting
stopping was the hardest thing ive ever had to other than see kota pass away i wish i didnt have to fight the urges
i blame my dad for making me stop though i know he loves me and i love him so much
i have a problem with lying my bestfriend didnt die in the hospital from a brain tumor thingy he died because i frustrated him so bad he left his house to go on a walk and was hit by a car.
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i really dont want to be around i honestly dont see a purpose for me....but i have to because i know that if i dont whos going to hold in all my friends secrets? and give advice///
i can give everyone else advice except for myself.....
all of this is true i know i have a problem with twisting the truth but i promise that it is 100% black and white no twisting or anything
I'd rather think you're lying when you say that your not seeing anyone else
because it means that I would rather rot in my misery, then be happy
and that means when it finally does happen
it will only break me just as much as the last person
because I knew it before you owned up.
because everyone cheats on me....
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
