Chaos
Hi everyone ,
Ummm so this is kind of stupid n I feel like a fool for writing this but I really need support n insight rn. So ive been almost 50 days clean which is my longest in agess. Buy anywayy , I'm starting t miss it. There's no trigger or anything, well not really. I js miss the chaos tbh. N ik how stupid tht must sound. But I miss having control of my pain. I'm tired of everyone else having power of when n how much t hurt me. I want the chaos bck ? Is tht normal ?
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