Was going to cut but I can't cut as deep as I need without needing stitches and due to the location of useable ie unscarred skin they might see it as a suicide attempt. I think I have to od. It's one thirty am and obviously can't phone anybody. I don't know what to do. I don't want to od.
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This is happening, this is part of you.
You don't want to overdose. Remember that. Overdosing is so unpleasant at the best of times but will be even worse if you don't want to do it! Please hold o n to that. Is there anything you can do to try and relax and get to sleep seeing as it's so early in the morning?
I can't without doing some kind of damage. It's not allowed. Not after everything I told doctor lady. I'm afraid if I stay up all night ill have to od anyways so may as well get it over with.
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This is happening, this is part of you.
No, you don't need to overdose. You can stop this. Yes staying up increases your risk so could you try going to bed safely?
You don't want to overdose. Remember how bad you felt when you did last time? You don't need to do it. Trust me. Get through the night without overdosing and you'll see you didn't need to do it.
I am trying but I can't go to sleep and stating awake is bad. I tried playing a game. I am afraid if I stay up I may eat something or drink something and then I would absolutely have to od in which case cutting seems a safer alternative.
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It's good you're trying, I can see you're working hard to try and avoid harming yourself. The same thing I said about the need to overdose goes for the need to harm yourself after eating. You need to eat and drink for your body and brain to work. It's really important. Playing a game is a good distraction, well done. Would a movie or anything help, maybe if you can lay down with a blanket while watching you may fall asleep?
No the dog is sleeping in her crate so doing anything with noise wakes her up and makes her whine. I'm on my iPod touch not laptop because she's learnt to sleep if its just that.
I'm sorry I'm being so difficult.
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Not yet. Self harmed and ate something. If I don't sleep quickly I may have to though. Eating is punishment enough but i am sure tomorrow will have to do worse. Dog is whining.
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If I don't see the point in actually doing any wound care, should I just leave it? I don't really want to go to a doctor and be like, I'm too lazy to take care of these wounds so I've covered and left them for day/s. I should probably suck it up and actually take a look, and clean them. But I don't care.
I don't know?
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Well I don't want to do any wound care. So would I need to go to a doctor? Because that is a stupid reason to go, just because I'm too lazy to take care of them. They didn't need medical attention so if I leave them they should be fine?
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