Mildly Triggering (ED) - Scaring myself somewhat...
Ok, it’s taken me god knows how many attempts to actually write this, and get up the courage to post it, because I don’t want to have to admit this. I’ve been doing well recently with regards to my recovery from SH, and I thought (maybe wrongly, but still) that I was getting better mentally, but recently, well, I’ve started purging again.
It just sort of came out of nowhere, the urge to purge, and before I even thought about it that first time, I was there doing it. And that’s pretty much how it’s happened ever since. I don’t know why I got that urge to do it, and I don’t know why I followed up on it, but now, well, I don’t know if I can stop. Don’t quite know what it is I’m looking for with this post or anything, and I think my fiance just found out about the whole thing, which actually scares the hell out of me more than the fact that I’m doing this, because well, he has certain opinions on things like this, and they really won’t be helpful to much of anything. I guess the whole thing just scares me somewhat.
Not sure about the trigger label, if I got the wrong one, tell me and I'll change it.
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