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22-10-2022, 08:32 PM
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#1
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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N9t doing so well.
Hi.
It's been a long time. My life has changed an awful lot. And really I don't know why I'm not OK. Except I'm not. And I don't even know how to explain it. I have CMHT assessment on Monday. I don't know what to say. I don't know how to get to there without more injuries. I don't think I want to get there injury free. I'm not even sure. Can someone help me?
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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22-10-2022, 08:55 PM
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Patchwork Elephant
Join Date: Sep 2009
Location: UK
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Hey. You've been missed <3
I'm so sorry things are hard. It sounds like it's not easy to explain, but do you know what your thoughts/reasoning is around wanting to injure yourself? Maybe it would help to try to write it out? Even if it's just a stream of consciousness, it might help you organise some of your thoughts.
I know that it's no substitute for a physical presence, but I am thinking of you and I'm sure I'm not the only one. It's got even quieter here recently, but there's a fair few of us still about. Do you have access to any out of hours services like Mental Health Matters or the Crisis team at the moment? I don't know how you'd feel about contacting them, but maybe an option if you're able to speak to them?
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'It's an impossible choice ... I'll just have to hope that when I flip the coin it somehow explodes and kills me.'
"You're not scared of climbing mountains. You're scared that you can't make them move."
Jenna was here :P
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22-10-2022, 10:42 PM
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#3
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Join Date: Jul 2022
Location: USA
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Wishing you well.
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23-10-2022, 04:35 PM
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We can try. We can always try.
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Your mum's bedroom
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Love you <3
Do you know what makes you want to get there injured?
I think what Lio says about writing things down is a good start for trying to find things to say.
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the sun
the moon
the truth
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23-10-2022, 08:42 PM
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#5
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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Thank you guys, means a lot that you'd all take the time out to reply.
I'm sorry. I have nothing else to write to you here really.
It's all just a bit much.
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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23-10-2022, 08:58 PM
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#6
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Join Date: Jul 2022
Location: USA
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Please don't worry, just say what you need and you need if it helps. I know, its too much sometimes.
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23-10-2022, 09:17 PM
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Camden
Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: USA
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Wondered where you went off to. Sending some love and penguins (if you still like them).
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Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
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24-10-2022, 07:46 PM
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#8
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: UK
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Just want to let you know that you've been missed and that I'm thinking of you and sending love xx
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Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
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26-10-2022, 12:10 AM
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#9
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We can try. We can always try.
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Your mum's bedroom
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Thinking of you <3
We're here if you want to talk about how your assessment went.
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the sun
the moon
the truth
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26-10-2022, 03:58 PM
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The Shadow of the Day
Join Date: Oct 2004
Location: Scotland
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I hope your assessment offered something that could help. You deserve it.
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I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
You didn't come this far just to come this far.
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14-11-2022, 07:23 AM
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: UK
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It's been a few weeks. I've been kidding myself that I can just plough on. If you don't acknowledge then it's not happening.
The assessment was difficult. The man bluntly said no service will take me on because of my diagnosis. I will grow out of this. My problems are work related.
I've spent yet another night hospital hopping. Go to one. Be sent to another. Be seen. Be judged as not requiring MH help. Except I dont know. Its the worst injury in a fair while. And it's escalating. And you didnt ask. And I have qork at 8am.
I want something tangible to hold on to.
I'm doing my best. It will never be enough. I'm tired.
Do you want to die? They ask.
I'm not sure.
There's definitely an absence of the want to live.
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Given enough tea I could rule the world.
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14-11-2022, 10:41 AM
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We can try. We can always try.
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: Your mum's bedroom
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I'm sorry services are once more letting you down like that.
They can be so judgemental for a profession that should be a safe space for people whether it's about physically or mental health.
The stigma that comes with certain diagnoses is outrageous.
You deserve better than that and you deserve help and I hope that you know that.
Is there any way you can take a day off work if needed?
Be gentle with yourself ❤️
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the sun
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the truth
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25-11-2022, 03:06 PM
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Pathologically flamboyant
Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Safety Cupboard
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I'm so sorry you continue to experience the very worst side of the MH profession. I cannot fathom how a professional could say with no shame that no service will help you with your diagnosis. It's despicable.
How are you getting on now? Do you have any strength to try to fight the lack of support by contacting PALS and that kind of thing?
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No other sadness in the world would do
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