stop that, you dont wanna go back to hospital
stop that, people will think youre crazy
stop that, they can kick you out of university... o_o
those cuts arent too bad, i know this or that person and they cut deep
promise me you wont do it again
whats with the cut fest? (this one was a bit funny at least)
try to control it
dont you know it can get infected and youd have to get your arm cut off?
youre emo
have you cut recently? -me: no. (long sleeves) *he grabs my arm and squeezes it to see if it hurts me*
dont you know it can get infected and youd have to get your arm cut off?
youre emo
have you cut recently? -me: no. (long sleeves) *he grabs my arm and squeezes it to see if it hurts me*
and lots more :/
I've never understood this emo assumption that everyone who cuts is an emo. Can anyone actually define what an 'emo' is for me? I'm just thinking gothic?
As for grabbing your arm like that, thats technicallly assault, I'm sorry he did that to you.
And if its any consolation I've had MRSA 12 times now and the Staph infection once and I have retained all four limbs.
*hugs*
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
The other week, a doctor at A+E said that I was quite old for someone who self harms (i'm in my mid-30s) as most people grow out of it. He wasn't being judgemental, I don't think, but I felt ashamed and like I was a bit weird.
He also said as he stitched me up "You have a very high pain threshold". Not true - if I cut myself accidently, or someone els inflicts pain on me, I react like anyone else. I was just not wanting to show any sign of pain as I wanted to stay in control.
I suppose like many comments people make, his came from a position of ignorance rather than judgement. He openly admitted that he didn't understand self harm. Although working in an A+E, surely he must come across it sometimes?
I get angry when other people try to minimise someone's self harm, like saying, oh it's not that bad, it's only superficial. People used to say that to me and it led to me pushing myself to harm myself in more damaging ways as I felt like my emotional pain wasn't being acknowledged.
more funny than inappropriate but therapist turned round to me when we were talking about my self harm and went oh well its fairly clear cut...
i just laughed and she just went oh my goodness and was mortified lol
"A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'"
It wasn't said to my face, but the one time i was in A&E for an od a nurse found out, by me how many i had taken then within hearing distance of me told another nurse. That annoyed me. And most of the staff thought i tried to end my life, i may have felt like that but i didn't mean to end my life through an od.
Personally I haven't had anyone say anything bad to me about it. I'm am really surprised at what people's mothers have said to them about SH.
My mom knows I see a therapist but she doesn't know why but one day she pointed at my arm and said "Is that where you used to cut yourself?" I did the immature thing and just glared at her and didn't say anything, all she said was "O, sorry"
I am really thankful that even though she doesn't know everything about why I see a therapist she still says "It's a good thing you go even if you don't want to tell me why."
I've seen so many horrible stories in here that I thought I'd brighten it up a bit.
I've never understood this emo assumption that everyone who cuts is an emo. Can anyone actually define what an 'emo' is for me? I'm just thinking gothic?
Emo is a (mostly youth) subculture, which evolved from punk, like goth did. People tend to correlate it(the look, the music) with SI, but it's not a thing (it's like saying all hip-hoppers do coke or all metalheads drink) It's not intrinsically connected.
"If you hate yourself then you hate me too," said by my mother in an attempt to make me feel guilty. Also, "This is stupid, just stop."
She keeps going on about how I can just stop, too, "just like that" *snap* and it'd be gone. Pah.
I'm an electric wire, if the sun can radiate
then so can I!
(Darling Violetta - Awesome)
Emo is a (mostly youth) subculture, which evolved from punk, like goth did. People tend to correlate it(the look, the music) with SI, but it's not a thing (it's like saying all hip-hoppers do coke or all metalheads drink) It's not intrinsically connected..
Thanks for explaining :)
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
I was in B&Q the other day looking at paint and this woman there couldn't find a specific paint she was looking for and she honestly said to the B&Q guy, "I can't find the paint anywhere, I'm about to slit my wrists here."
A guy I used to date and I were watching the fifth Harry Potter, and he said, "I'm Harry Potter and I'm acting all whiny and I'm going to go over here and cut myself." The look I gave him soured him on all those kinds of jokes.
He also said, when I told him about everything, "I have problems too. I used to watch porn." Porn, seriously? He always tried to turn everything on himself, like it was a contest to see who was more messed up.
If they give you ruled paper, write the other way.
-Juan Ramon Jimenez
Though the scars of my sin run deep
They're washed in the flood brought from Calvary
Remind me, O Lord, in my hour of need
The war won for the redeemed.
--Brooks Ritter
None of my friends know, so this is what they say infront of me sometimes.
'I just want to tell her to go ahead and kill herself! rid the world of her emo-ness'
'cut up the street, not across'
'o my gosh! i could just cut myself!'
so much more, but you get the jest.
I am nobody. Who are you? are you nobody too? Then there's a pair of us. Don't tell! They'd banish us - you know. -- Emily Dickinson
With me its "Oh gee now you've made me sad" *Miimes cutting wrists then dying
Or when other people who cut just for kicks or a status symbol say "you don't understand. I'll just go cut"
"well i've cut myself a couple times" "really,show me" nope just thought i would throw that out there for laughs.
after telling my freinds i stopped cutting 2 mothes ago they decided to talk about all the times they tired it. "and then i used a cross hatching motion on my thigh cause it looked cool" oh gods, how triggering.
"well it not like i can stop talking to you for cutting, were not in jr.high anymore." so.....what does that leave me with. your apathy?
"i'm going to cut myself with a rusted spoon." i didn't think that worked, the infections not worth it.
unrelated but still mean, after telling my english class about my struggles with my weight, which almost all my friends are in. i don't like candy much now so i also only eat half. " god, you have an eating disorder i swear, lol." no, got over it. no thanks to your powers of observation.
so we called my cutting burning paper, and i only ever showd one friend and everytime. "oh, that looks like it hurt." *face palm*
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My friend's ex-boyfriend. *shows my 1 cm long cut on his hand* "Lindsey you don't know what it's like to be depressed. Look. I cut myself. Isn't that deep? And nobody cares." Nobody cares because you've been doing the smallest cuts you could manage for attention ever since you found out your girlfriend was cutting herself. Do you know how pissed she was at you for that? You're not even depressed. Bet you didn't know that I had cut myself about 15 times or so the night before. That's why I was wearing long sleeves in April.
I had someone once say to somebody else about me self harming that I do it for attention. Yeah, that's why I used to sit in my room, by myself with the curtains shut and the door locked and try and hide it.
When my Great Nan died and I was self harming after they used the dead family member guilt trip card on me. 'Do you think your great nan would like to see you doing this?' I don't know, she didn't know at all before and it's not as if she could do a lot about it now if she did know
