*sigh* So tired. Still waiting on TMS treatment...
Sorry to hear that things aren't so good Annie, Kat and wildly insane (can I call you Hannah?). I hope they improve.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Yes, yes, Hannah is good, all good here, sounds tough Kahila, hope they don’t keep you waiting much longer.
Anna, how are you? Fancy another cuppa? Do you want to chat about it?
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
I feel like my head is full of cotton wool. I'm distracted to the point of being referred to the risk management team. I'm on meds, so if I feel like this with them I don't know what I'd be like without them. Maybe I'd be in the middle of an episode.
I've got two weeks off. That scares me. And I don't really know why.
Thank you Hannah, Kahlia and Kat.
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...I try to outsmart him, but somehow he knows,
Wherever I am, that f***ing dog goes... - Dog, Andy Bull
No matter how bad things get, the true test is how we choose to respond to the pain we suffer, or inflict. - Amenadiel, Lucifer
Why is the path unclear,
When we know hope is near
Understand we'll go hand in hand, but we'll walk alone in fear
~~Margo is my penguin 🐧!!! ~~
Have you discussed changing meds with anyone, maybe they're not the right ones?
Is there anything you want to do during your two weeks off which you can focus on? are there little things on a day by day basis you can do and keep yourself busy?
"I am me and me is good enough if I would only be it openly"
Hey guys, sorry, i've not read up, I don't think I have it in me right now.
I used to frequent here a few years ago, but haven't been in for a while.
Hope everyone's doing as well as they can be.
I've got a booking with my psychiatrist for the first time since 2007. At the end of May. Downside of living 3 hrs away from a major city.
My GP is reluctant to adjust them. I think I'm close to the max dose of one, and intrusive thoughts are still a daily struggle. Other symptoms are relatively controlled. But if the distraction continues we might have to do something drastic. I can't function at work like this.
Dad's surgery has been postponed a fortnight. So no aloneness for my vacation.
Hug for bang ended scoot. And thanks for the kindness Hannah
...I try to outsmart him, but somehow he knows,
Wherever I am, that f***ing dog goes... - Dog, Andy Bull
No matter how bad things get, the true test is how we choose to respond to the pain we suffer, or inflict. - Amenadiel, Lucifer
Why is the path unclear,
When we know hope is near
Understand we'll go hand in hand, but we'll walk alone in fear
~~Margo is my penguin 🐧!!! ~~
Haven't been here for a while. Have been doing okay for the past few months but tonight I feel terrible. First time in a while I have had to fight with the Voices and other things. Trying really hard not to do something bad like hurt myself, but it is very difficult right now. Hard to resist. Going to try yo take my meds and write in my journal and hopefully fall asleep soon. Until then I will just sit in here.
~Matt~
Susanna Kaysen: I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Dr. Sonia Wick: Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
Susanna Kaysen: I don't care.
Dr. Sonia Wick: If it's your favorite word, I would've thought you would...
Susanna Kaysen: It *means* I don't care. That's what it means.
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
Not having a great evening and having a hard time..
Just want to run away from all the pain and the chaos in my head. Going to sit here and hope it gets better
~Matt~
Susanna Kaysen: I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Dr. Sonia Wick: Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
Susanna Kaysen: I don't care.
Dr. Sonia Wick: If it's your favorite word, I would've thought you would...
Susanna Kaysen: It *means* I don't care. That's what it means.
Hey everyone. I’m turning 30 this week and am scared because I’ve done nothing with my life. :( it all seems to be a mess. I’m physically ill, mentally ill and unable to do things by myself. I didn’t envision 30 in a wheelchair. Then again I don’t think anyone does.
Hope everyone is good x
I'm over these headaches. I am so tired. I go to sleep at night and wake up still exhausted. Stress may kill me. People ask me how I do it all. I honestly don't know. I manage for now. Ask me tomorrow after I throat punch someone for telling me something I already know doesn't work for my kid. I've been doing nothing but fighting for her for months. Nobody is listening. What more do I need to do to get these doctors to take my concerns seriously and actually do something about it all?
Life is hard. Adulting is hard. Nobody ever told me as a kid things would be so tough.
I want to just sleep. For as long as possible and wake up to everything being okay. *sigh*
Sometimes when I say "I'm okay," I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight, and say "I know you're not."
I've finally had my TMS treatment and come home from hospital again but have a traumatic memory returning so I'm crawling in to find some place that isn't terrifying.
psychadelicflowergirl: I only went into a wheelchair about 2 years ago but I definitely didn't envision it happening... ever in fact.
*sigh* Right now I'd just take being able to be in a darkened room without completely freaking out, but that doesn't seem like it will happen any time soon.
*curls up in the corner*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Hey :) I was a member here a loooong while ago (apparently I last posted in 2009) It took a little while and a bit of searching to remember my username (thank you introductions threads) but now I can log in as me again and say hello.
Thank you for letting me stay here
Thank you for taking me in
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í 
