I can't believe you're doing what you're doing. Oh wait actually, I can. Perhaps if you started to think about how other people feel instead of your d**k, money and drugs, you might make some more friends and ultimately quit torturing yourself. Materials mean nothing when all is said and done.
I know that you're all struggling right now, and I'm sorry I never reply to any posts with legit help. I feel terrible because it's not even because I'm struggling. I just don't know what to say. I know that saying I'm sending hugs and love isn't enough to help. I've never been ill enough to experience even close to anything that anyone else is suffering. So I just don't know what to say. I'm sorry. It doesn't mean I don't care. I just don't know how to help those that I love.
Why am I such an idiot? Why do I keep dismissing what is obviously a good thing and thinking it's all in my head? Because it has been before, or because I'm scared? I don't even know but I know I need to stop because it will make things worse.
I wish you all would stop treating my silent cries for help as if they were jokes. I thought you were my friends.
But more than that I wish you would all stop joking about being kind to me. Because I can't tell the fucking difference and if I were in a happier state of mind I could joke along with you but right now it just hurts to see that you don't understand that you're joking with a crying woman. I can't always be the 'happy' one in our friendships.
And lastly. Please don't act shocked when you realise that I'm serious and start apologising. It doesn't help at all because you don't learn.
I'm sorry I've not been much help recently, I know you need me, I know you do, but I'm not struggling anymore so hopefully, I should be more help, I really hope I am, I'll do my best to help oyu all I can, I promise. Please, I promise you. I'm tired, but, I really need to help you because you obviously are not okay. Let me help you. I want too.
I'm so tired, I really did not enjoy being woken up at half 11 when I didn't sleep till 6 because my bed is broken so I'm sleeping on the floor, I'm sorry I yelled, Im sorry I screamed, Im sorry I cried, just want you to understand I'm struggling with emotions.
Sugar in my tea, really? I said I didn't want any, I am trying to be good and not freak out about this but, it's so difficult, I dont want sugar anymore, I dont want to get MORE FAT, I just want to STOP EATING and STOP DRINKING, just want EVERYTHING TO STOP! I can't get my head round you sometimes
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"pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like your less than less than perfect"
"Don't ever change, you're perfect the way you are" only a PM away for ANYONE
Gem [smurfette] is my little sister and my princess <3
R.I.P. Keith....31/10/12....forever missed
R.I.P. Lewis....18/01/13....forever I'll love you, forever missed
Help me, please fucking help me. I think I'm letting it in. I think I need this evil inside me, I wanted it and it came, I needed it to hurt me and fucking did. Please help me.
everything reminds me of her
she reminds me of the you im not supposed to see.
im going over the edge and i really am back on my own.
i thought it would be easy because thats how it was before.
it wasnt.
i had grandparents, my sister, brother, then you..
now, now i have lilly.
the only reason im still here right now is because i dont know anyone safe enough to take lilly if i wasnt here.
children are no longer safe.
everythings become evil
i'm actually kind of scared. i want to keep putting it off, but i know i shouldn't. for now i'll just keep hiding it.
oh non-believer, please believe me.
is there honestly nothing in this world
that keeps you living & breathing?
you're a ghost in your own
goddamn city.
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