And I feel like the freak out is coming. Please please please will you just text me back or call me to say you're on your way, or just walk through that door now because it's building up in my brain and I don't know what to do with it.
tbh i've only ever been worth what i weigh and that's all that people have ever noticed about me since i can remember and i don't like it or understand it
Your house is filthy
I seem depressed because I AM depressed
I'm sorry if that fucking upsets the children, or rather the child I rarely ever see
No, I'm not really getting help
You don't pay me enough to clean or even be inside your dirty house
You treat your dog like shit and every day I repress the urge to steal her
The only reason I'm working for you anyway is because I'm hoping at the end of this I can convince you to sell/give her to me
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Why don't you ever call? Why don't ANY of you ever call? You all seem to like me when we're together but when ---'s gone you forget I exist.
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I'm sorry, I really am. I don't mean to keep doing this to you. I couldn't ask for a better more important person to love and raise me than you. I know the sorries seem empty now, but I really am. I don't mean for my craziness or what I bring around us to hurt you. I'm trying to stop and get better. Sometimes I wish I lived alone so you wouldn't see it and get bothered, even if I was lonelier.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
im so sorry but i am right, running away wont solve anything, you just dont really want people to see you're lieing about all this, this, is why you're running away, least i confront whats making me anxious even if it all in one blurted out rant to my mum. you dont do anything other than text me and say all the LIES and say "are you still my friend if i run awyay" or "im sorry Im bad" or "im wanting to know if x, y, or x would kill me" cheers like i need that right now
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i love you
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help me i cant cope with all this
"pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like your less than less than perfect"
"Don't ever change, you're perfect the way you are" only a PM away for ANYONE
Gem [smurfette] is my little sister and my princess <3
R.I.P. Keith....31/10/12....forever missed
R.I.P. Lewis....18/01/13....forever I'll love you, forever missed
Thanks for the disclaimer.
Paranoid that all the people hate me for doing all the wrong things.
I don't know what to say or to not say.
I refuse to get out of bed today.
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
Oh. My. God. I just cannot with you. Congratulations on learning how to use a pissing phone. Even if it's actually made me more irate with you. I just can't.
X - I'm so proud of how far you've come. A little bit more pushing now and the future you want is more than achievable. Come on, love... let's fight this last hurdle for you and get you strong and healthy on that road you'll do so much good on. I hope you can be happy and excited about your future.
Y - thank you for making me feel part of something so special, and for not judging me.
Z - People keep saying I should be proud. But I feel so guilty I can't tell you what I did on friday. So I'll keep avoiding your calls. Sorry.
I need to pay this money off. The interest is getting higher and higher and I'm sinking further but I don't have anymore money to pay it off. Ireallyneedridofthis.
