Worried

[Cacoethes]

Yes I think you're right Camden
Being honest seems like the best thing

[The Worst Witch]

I can only agree with everyone else, I know being monitored is no fun but if you were left to your own devices it could quickly become overwhelming and dangerous. It sounds like the last thing they want is to put you in hospital as long as you keep engaging and being honest so well done!

How are things today?

[Cacoethes]

That is true
Thank you

Things are weird
I'm convinced I can hear the microchip in my neck and I don't know what to do about it

[The Worst Witch]

Could you contact your team and see what they have to say about it? When are you starting the med increase?

[nonperson]

What helped to deal with these thoughts last time?

[Cacoethes]

I don't really want to bother my team about this
Especially as it's a Friday afternoon

I've given in the new prescription to the pharmacy so I'll try and pick it up tomorrow

I'm not sure np
They just kind of went away

I can't hear the microchip now which is good

[one_step_closer]

Are there other possibilities for what you are hearing? It could be sort of brief tinnitus noises.

Please do your best to pick up your prescription tomorrow.

[Cacoethes]

I can feel the noise coming from my neck
It's hard to explain
I can feel it too

I will

[one_step_closer]

Could it be your pulse? Sometimes that can have a noise along with it? I don't want to make you think too much tonight incase it brings worries back but if it would help then do think of other things it could be.

[Cacoethes]

It's definitely not a pulse
I can't think of anything else it could be

[Pomegranate]

Alternative explanation could be muscle twitches. When I’m tired I get them in my neck.

[Cacoethes]

I hadn't thought about that

[Pomegranate]

I’m not saying it’s one thing or another hun. Was just offering another more ‘rational’ explanation that I know I’ve experienced (and also had quite stressful thoughts about when things weren’t quite right).

Also, I know you didn’t ask about this here but I was thinking earlier (in a non creepy way lol), and have you told the DVLA about your mental health issues? Just cos I couldn’t drive for three months after a hospitalisation and because of that the council gave me a five year bus pass. I mean obvs you should tell them, but if you’re not planning on passing your test in the next few months, that would also lead to a free bus pass x

[Cacoethes]

I appreciate that

I told them about my MH issues when I initially applied for my provisional license but nothing since then.
I probably won't be able to afford any driving lessons or tests for quite a while so maybe I could look into that

[tamobhuuta]

Do you have an explanation as to how a microchip would be put in your neck?

[Cacoethes]

I think it was a hair dresser i went to while IP
I felt a sharp stab in my neck when she was washing my hair

[nonperson]

It was probably more likely to have been one of her false nails to be perfectly honest with you, Beckie.

[tamobhuuta]

I agree with np, there are other explanations. What do you think the microchip would do? Do you have evidence that this is happening?

[Cacoethes]

I don't think she had false nails
Cant remember though

I have no idea what it would do and I have no ohysical evidence
Its frustrating
I tried to cut it out while I was IP but the hospital said I could have damaged my spinal cord which obviously I really don't want to do

[one_step_closer]

I honestly don't think you would have found anything trying to cut it out, and if you had damaged your spinal cord then that would be awful. Please take very good care of yourself.

Are you finding swimming helpful?