Yeah, because beating the shit out of yourself is really going to help, huh Marie?
Fuck off and die, idiot.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I dont know what im doing but i cant seem to stop myself. This is exactly the sort of situation i always get into and cant see a way out. Wether it ends now or not, things have gone too far and its not something i can take back. Im loving and hating every moment of this situation but i hate that i cannot talk to anyone about it.
What am i doing!?
*-*be my everything and i will be your anything*-*
I dropped out of uni, I have no social life.
I've been suicidal, I tried to kill myself week before last.
I am a stupid failure and I couldn't bear to tell you! That's why I haven't been in touch.
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
Christ, I need to start taking it easier on myself.
Mentally, and physically, beating the shit out of myself is going to get my precisely nowhere.
I am expecting to be very much struggling tomorrow, but that will be okay, I've worked my damned arse off today and done a hell of a lot more than I should have, and I am actually very proud of myself for managing to block out the pain and make myself useful and make my 'Mum' and Dad proud of me today. And that, for now, is good enough.
I have to start taking it easy on myself.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Thanks- that was really a nice offer. But you have no idea what you'd be in for: A stupid teenage girl that can't pull herself together. [who refuses to eat, purges, and will use just about any sharp object in sight to hurt herself with] And I doubt you want any of that :)
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
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