A bit nervous about your TDY tomorrow. Not sure how that's gonna go. Hoping I can function ok without you here.
But at least I won't have to eat so much without you here.
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
I like you J, Like me back?
argh! I hate all this guessing, and wondering. I like straightforwardness, like I like you, you like me, lets be fuck buddies/boyfriend and girlfriend/date for a while...just so i know where we are. not: 'i like you' "i like you too but right now were just having fun?" 'yes'. fail. why would you try to have that conversation with me when i was drunk. oooh heres a good idea give me more alcohol and lets get shitfaced and have even more sloppy sex.
ooohhh..even sloppy sex with you is better than a lot of the sex i've had. that is sad.
im in lust with you so bad.
Whatever it is, you can get through it. I promise.
You used your disapproving voice when talking about the their report on the phone. Made me smile because it means I'm doing it 'properly'. Almost. HA! I'll show you what I can do.
When I've got my arms around your waist, or yours around my shoulders, or our cheeks pressing together, or your head resting on mine because you're taller than me, it makes me feel... happy.
It has been so long since I've felt that, been able to use that word without lying. It tastes foreign on my tongue. But please let me keep that.
But you can't. You don't know.
If only I trusted enough to tell you.
No, you most certainly do not care. It doesn't matter how many times you call- you still will not care. And no, do not call again tomorrow. I probably won't answer then either.
Will you ever learn...
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(someone else)
Please get home soon... Getting anxious about it :/
Last edited by lonely_hope : 27-09-2011 at 05:29 AM.
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
I don't care what you think. I honestly could not care less. You're thousands of miles away- you have no say anymore. You're not getting that information. I'm sick of your antics.
Next time I have to talk to you (meaning, Dad makes me,)- everything is fine. I am fine. School is fine. I had a good day. Nothing of content, lying through my teeth. And if you start going off about that other stuff- I don't want to hear it. I'd be tempted to hang up, or just say I don't want to talk to you. I know that wouldn't do anything constructive, but man, it would feel so good.
I don't need your "approval" to live my life.
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
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